As of this point in 2003, my wife had been fucked by 11 different men during our 15 year marriage - all within the past 3 years or so. Our life together was otherwise very normal and happy. She seemed content with the arrangement and suprisingly, I began to feel more comfortable with what she was doing - even though I didn’t fully understand it. I felt good that she was not a cheater and never lied about what she was doing. In fact, she seemed to enjoy the fact that I knew she was enjoying other men. The fact that she was truthful was good, but I often wondered why she seemed to relish in telling me about the men who she gave herself to and how she seemed to enjoy it so much. After her last encounter she confided that she found it exciting knowing that this man wanted her and that they both got off on calling me and telling me what they were doing.

I sometimes would get the sense that she was in a way saying: these men are enjoying me and pleasing me more than I ever would or could. Having other men want her seemed to affirm her sexuality, she seemed to get a sense of power and sensuality from it. This seemed to excite her and incite her to take things further, And further it would go…

I began to do some research about this sort of thing. What was it that would motivate an otherwise normal, healthy happily married woman, the mother of our 3 children to behave this way? Had I done something to cause this? It was during my research that I first read in detail about the word 'CUCKOLD'. I had heard the term but not fully understood its' meaning. I found that what she was doing had all the signposts of cuckolding. A wife who is sexually promiscuous with the knowledge of her husband. It seemed to matter little if the husband accepted his wife’s infidelity, but it was clear that in the truest sense of the word, it was the wife who was the one to initiate cuckolding. Lisa came into my office one evening while doing this reading, and we had a very frank discussion about what had been going on for the past few years. While she had never known the meaning of the word CUCKOLD, as she read some of the published articles, it was clear to us both that this was now part of our married life.

Lisa was fascinated with the subject and over the next few months I would often find her reading stories and sometimes watching videos on the internet. She never hid it from me, and in fact seemed to enjoy sharing what she was seeing and learning. Many times the videos she watched involved interracial scenes, and while I didn’t think much of it at the time, in retrospect this was a big part of inner desires.
She would sometimes send me links to stories that she found arousing or interesting to her, most of them had cuckold themes or undercurrents. A few examples that stick in my mind are: The wife taking a lover, while the husband waited anxiously at home then returning and denying him, a middle aged wife having sex a young black man who was working at their home, a wife stumbling upon a bachelor party in Vegas and then becoming the entertainment for 10-15 young men.

Cuckolding is all about control, my wife controling her sexuality, and mine as it turns out. Years later I would find out what this was all about and why she was so fascinated by it.

The phone call home

Lisa went to another business function a few month later. It was a 2 day conference and was held at a hotel several hours away. Lisa and all the participants would arrive in the morning, have meetings all day, followed by dinner and drinks. Everyone would be staying over at the conference hotel.

Lisa called me after the day of meetings and said she was getting showered and dressed for dinner. She said the meetings were good and that she had a drink with a few of the guys from a different region before going back to the room . She told me one of them, (Mike) kept telling her he couldn't believe she was 44 years old and had 2 kids. He was 34. This was my clue that something might be brewing. There is always a clue with her.

She called again after dinner, she said she was at the bar with Mike. It was 11PM, he had bought her drinks and Lisa was tipsy again. She told me she was having a good time and she would call me when she got back to her room. An hour later she called again. She said she was in her room, but Mike had invited her to his room for a nightcap and she was going there next. She would call me later 'if she could' .

She called 30 minutes later. She was in his room, I knew what was about to happen so I went to my PC and turned on the recorder so I could capture what she said. She told me she was on the bed with Mike, I could hear him in the background, sucking sounds filtered over the phone line. I asked her what he was doing, she said he was taking off her clothes.

She handed him the phone, he told me I had a very sexy wife, he said 'do you know she's going to be his naughty slut tonight? ' he said she is a naughty girl, that he has really nice tits, he asked when the last time she had another guy was, he told me he was taking off her panties and her pussy was nice and shaved. Lisa was moaning in the background the whole time he is talking to me. I knew that it was not shaved when she left that morning, so she must have anticipated this.

He told me they both wanted each other. She told me he was licking her clit, she was breathless at times during the call. I heard her say something about fingers, 'more fingers' and I thought he must have his fingers inside her. He was licking her pussy and she directed him to her clit. She asked me if I was jacking off right now and if I had cum yet? She starts telling him she wants him to cum all over her chest...I heard the phone drop, the line went dead, then I heard her moan deeply and then she said very clearly, 'Fuck me'.

I called back many times over the next hour but there the call went directly to voicemail. it was no use, I knew he was fucking fucking my wife. I did not sleep much that night.

The next morning she called me before hearding to the 2nd day of meetings. She appologized for missing my calls but she s
aid her battery went dead. I asked her what happened, and she just said 'Your ears must have been ringing all night, he fucked me so good!!'.

The audio is posted here, you can hear for yourself, just what that night was like for me to hear another man as he is about to fuck my wife.

The business function

A few weeks later Lisa went to a business function. After the business meeting and diner, some of her coworkers went to a bar where some former colleagues of hers were planning on meeting. One young man was always a favorite of hers, and in fact I had met him several times and we all got along well. He was 27 years old and single.

The night is a bit of a blur to me but she invited him to our house after they were done at the bar. She surprised me when she walked in the door with him, his hand around her waste, and said 'Look who I found!'.

She had me make them some drinks, even though it was 1AM on a weeknight. We had a good buzz on and Lisa insisted that he not drive home. Lisa told him to come upstairs and she would find him a place to sleep. Our guest room was in disarray because of some remodeling we were doing and knew where this was going...

They went directly into our bedroom and from the kitchen I soon heard her moaning and the bed shaking above me. A few minutes later she called my name and asked me to come upstairs. They were on the bed, her blouse and bra were open, her skirt was up around her waist when I came to the door. His pants were unzipped and his belt was unbuckled She said 'there's nowhere for him to sleep so he's sleeping here', then asked me to bring their drinks up.

When I returned with the drinks she was on her knees on the bed, sucking his cock. She looked up at me and took the drink, took a sip and said thank you, then went right back to sucking him. The guy just looked at me in disbelief, through his hands up as if to say, 'What do you expect me to do?' then his eyes rolled back in his head as my wife continued to suck him.

I turned to leave the room and she stopped me, asked me to sit on the bed next to her. Then She said 'I want you to watch'.

I sat there as she continued to blow him. Soon the rest of their clothes were off and he was fucking her. He continued to fuck her for about 20 minutes i guess and then when it looked like he was ready to cum he slowed down, he turned to me and said 'why don't you fuck her too'...

Lisa said, 'no, don't stop' and she pulled him deeper inside her. A few moments later, groaned loudly, he pulled out of her pussy, rose up and came in my wife's' mouth.

At this point it was late and we all soon fell asleep, Lisa in the middle. He had shot his cum in her mouth and before falling asleep, she kissed me goodnight. This was not just a peck, it was a deep kiss, and she punctuated it by looking me in they eyes, then she smiled and said, 'Taste good...?

The next morning he left very early and Lisa spent the day recovering and relaxing. Although we never discussed it again, we have socialized with him and his (new) wife a few times over the years.

The business aquaintance - He fucks her in my bed

March 2001

A few months passed and Lisa had taken a new position at work. It was a great opportunity and would involve a partnership with a company from the west coast. One of the west coast reps was in town for a conference and Lisa spent a few days working with him. She told me about him after dinner one evening, he was a 28 year old single guy, she said he was very attractive and funny. She told me that the next night they would all be going out to dinner and he would be hading back home the next afternoon.

The next day Lisa looked stunning when she left for work, she wore an above the knee skirt and a fitting blouse with a jacket. She emailed me in the afternoon, reminding me she was going out after work, and told me 'He' would be driving her to the resteraunt and they were going out for drinks after dinner, and 'don't wait up for me'.

Around 11 PM she called from the bar. Everyone else had left, it was just Lisa and him. She had left her car at the office, and she sounded a bit drunk so I told her I would come and get her rather than risk driving home. I heard her talking with him for a few moments and she told me she would call me back in 20 mins. 40 mins passed and she finally called, she was in his car, he was driving her home. She said he would be staying over and please make sure the guest room was ready.

They arrived 20 mins later, Lisa was tipsy, and very playfull. She introduced us and he seemed very nice. Lisa took him to the living room and sat near him on the sofa, she was clearly into him and I had a feeling what was to come of this.

I went to the bedroom and turned on the video camera in anticipation of what was next. Sure enough, when I returned, they were kissing on the sofa, his hand was up Lisa skirt and she was rubbing the substantial bulge in his pants.

Lisa looked up at me and said 'Did you take care of the guest room for me?'.
I said that I had. And with that, she stood up, walked over to me, gave me a kiss and said good night. She then led him by the hand towards the staircase leading up to our bedroom. As they passed me he extended his hand and said 'Thanks, I'll take good care of her, you have a good nite'. They went to our bedroom and closed the door.





I waited and listened for signs of what was happening until i could no longer take it. I went up to the bedroom door and tried to listen, I could hear them talking quietly and laughing, a few moans as well. I reached for the doorknob, it was locked. Finally I knocked and lisa came and opened the door and told me to come in.

She was wearing a see thru nighty, he was laying on the bed - on my side, his belt buckle open.
I sat at the edge of the bed for a moment, Lisa leaned over and kissed him and reached for his crotch.
Lisa looked over at me and said she was having fun, "why don't you go get some sleep in the guest room". She leaned over and helped him take his shirt off as I made my way out of the bedroom.
I knew my prescence was no longer welcome and that she wanted to be alone with him.
For the next 2 hours I heard nothing but moans and screams of exctacy coming from our bedroom. The rythmic sound of the headboard banging against the wall. I spent the night restlessly listening to this guy fucking my wife in my bed. Finally things quieted down around 3AM and I fell asleep, still wondering what had happened.



I woke up a few hours later, the house was quiet. I went to the bedroom door and heard nothing, then went to the kitchen to make coffee. A few minutes later I heard Lisa moaning again. The headboard began to quietly bang again, that sound is unmistakable. In rythm with his thrusts, I knew each sound meant his cock was driving into my wife.

Lisa emerged from the bedroom a few minutes later and made her way to the kitchen. She wore his unbuttoned shirt and nothing else. Through the opening in the shirt I saw his dried sperm on her tits and belly. She said she was worn out, that he was great and she was sorry he had to go back home that night. She thanked me for leaving them alone, she told me he wanted her alone and was not comfortable with me in the room.

She went to shower and they soon both got in his car and went to the office. Lisa exchanged phone #s and emails with him for a few months but they never saw each other again.





I watched the video later and saw much of what happened that night. The light was low but it was very clear that Lisa wanted to be fucked and she got what she wanted.
To this day she thinks he was one of her best lovers and since this was the first to fuck her alone in our bed, he has left an indelible impression on me as well.

The swing club

At this point (around mid 2002), I began to wonder what was going on...was my wife just a slut? I traveled alot for business and I wondered if she had cheated on me over the years, maybe this was not something that had just developed, and in fact had been going on for our whole marriage. So I decided to ask Lisa directly. Her answer was unequivocal, she was not a slut, she was not a cheat, and she valued our marriage and relationship more than ever. She was very sincere and honest and I have no reason to doubt her.

Around this time, Lisa began getting interested in exploring the internet, she found a few sites for swing clubs and an erotic show and mentioned them to me. We went to this Erotic Show in NYC, which was like a big conference for people in the porn biz. It was kind of interesting and fun but since we weren't in the porn biz it really wasn't for us. Lisa suggested we leave the show around 10PM and check out the swing club, which was not very far away.

The club was a multi-level bar, nothing really obvious going on in the bar but Lisa started chatting with one guy at the bar, who told her that people play on the upper level. Lisa suggested we go to the upper level, where we found about 20 couples, in various stages of undress, either making out or having sex. We found a quiet corner and just kind of observed things for a while. Within a few minutes a couple moved close to us and started talking with Lisa. We all kind of hit it off and within an hour or so we invited them to join us for a drink at our hotel.

After a few drinks at the hotel bar, Lisa suggested we bring it up to our room. Once we arrived it was clear the guy wanted Lisa and visa versa. They began kissing on the bed and within minutes he was inside her. His wife and I were laying on the bed, just watching him fuck Lisa so furiously, as if we were not even there. Although I tried, it was obvious that his wife was not interested in having sex or playing at all with me. After some time, Lisa and the womans' husband both climaxed, he spilled his cum all over her ass while fucking her doggy style.

We all fell asleep, all on the same bed, he next to Lisa. The next morning I woke to the sounds of sex, Lisa was laying on her side, John was on his side behind her, he held her leg up with one hand and I could see him stroking his cock against Lisa's pussy lips with the other. She was facing me and I could see the pleasure he was giving her in her face. She looked at me, kissed me and then whispered, 'He's going to fuck me again, ok?'.

His cock was not huge, but the head was enornous. Her legs spread wider, he gave a loud groan and pushed his cock inside her again. A few minutes later Lisa got on her knees and elbows and he fucked her from behind again, exploding all over her ass and back. They left a little while later, we echanged phone # and said we would stay in touch, but never did.

Later Lisa told me she had a good time but had hoped the woman would want to play with me, she said she felt guilty for enjoying herself while I had no such luck, but she said she was horny and a bit tipsy and she had a one track mind at the time.
She said she liked the feeling of a big head inside her, she told me it made her cum because when he was inside her from behind, she could feel it hitting a spot inside her that made her cum so hard.

So another man fucked my wife on this night. And there would be more men over the next few months... I will post those stories very soon. Doubts crept back into my spinning head...The frequency of her trysts was seeming to increase, I once again began to wonder...

Is my wife just a slut? Is she a nymphomaniac? Or is this normal and something I should continue to accept...?

the story continues...

A few months went by with no real mention of what had happened nor any mention of it happening again. I pretty much was starting to think she had gotten it out of her system, whatever it was that she felt she needed to do, but I was wrong abou that. We occassionally had sex and it was all good, or seemed to be at least. One night while out to dinner, Lisa asked if I had heard from the young man she met in our earlier post:

http://diaryofarealhotwife.blogspot.com/2011/05/close-to-home-part-2-no-turning-back.html

I had been chatting with him over the months and he was very interested in getting together again with my wife. She told me to arrange another date as soon as possible which I did, for a saturday night 3 weeks away. Sex between us came to a halt at this point, although I didn't notice for a week or two. I soon came to understand that this denial of sex was intentional and it is how she would prepare me and herself for her date.


We were to meet at the same hotel bar for drinks and then I would get the room and ... As the date night approached Lisa went to get her hair and nails done, she wanted to look her best for him of course. Lisa showered and was about to get dressed and then told me meet her in the bedroom. She layed on a towel and told me to get my razor...

she wanted me to shave her pussy for him tonight. I did as she asked, as I was doing it she was moaning and saying things like, 'he will be in me in a few hours, he's going to fuck me like he did last time'. she made me make sure it was completely shaven before rinsing off in the shower again.

A few hours later we were off to the hotel bar. We met, had a few drinks and I could tell they were anxious to get to the room. Lisa asked me to go check in at the frint desk. Hard to describe the feeling of standing at the front desk and paying for a room that another man is going to fuck my wife in. I returned to the bar and she asked me for the keys, she asked if I would settle the bar tab then meet them in the lobby.

As the 3 of us walked through the lobby, I saw the man who checked me in, and for some reason I couldn't help feeling like he knew what was going on, although there was no way he could have.

When we got to the room Lisa asked me to get her bag from the car, then come back up to the room. In the bag was a bottle of wine, a change of clothes and our video camera. When I returned I realized I did not bring the key to the room, so as I was about to knock, I hear muffled moaning through the door. I am paralized, not knowing if I should knock or wait till I hear them talking. I am wondering what is going on in there, was he already fucking my wife? I was only gone 5-10 mins...Was she sucking his cock?

Finally I knocked, I heard her say 'Just a minute...' then some laughter...then the door opened. To my surprise they were both still dress, he was on the bed, Lisa's clothes looked alittle out of place...

They embraced on the bed as I opened and poured the wine, within minutes he was undressing Lisa. She called me over and told me to release her bra for her, her full breasts spilled out as I removed each from its holder. He reached over and fondeled each one, cupping them in his hand, her nipples quickly rising with excitment.

Lisa helped him out of his pants, and he layed her back on the bed, her blouse was in the way and she carelessly tossed it over to me, landing on my head. Althoug it made me feel somewhat rediculous, we all laughed and it kind of broke the heavy silence in the room. She soon layed back, spread her thighs for him, he slowly raised her hips up and removed her thong shaking his head in wonder at the site of my wifes perfectly hairly pussy. He quickly began lapping at my wifes' freshly shaven pussy and after a few minutes of moaning, lisa pulled him towards her. They kissed deeply and she reached down between his legs and positioned his thick heavy cock at her love hole. With one slow and deliberate thrust he was inside my wife, balls deep. It was that quick...in all of 4 or 5 minutes and his cock was in her, just as she had wanted it.

He fucked her for a long time, I was just sitting and watching as they changed positions and Lisa came time after time. I don't know what goes on in Lisa's head at moments like this...the moment where the head of her playmate's swollen cock is poised near the opening of her beautiful pussy...her pussy hovering over his hard cock. I would love to know what she thinks in that moment as she is about slide down on top of him. For me, seeing her pussy being entered and then stretched by another mans cock is such a mixture of feelings, fear, excitement as well as regret.

I think she realizes this too. Sometimes she will pause, right when she is about to slide down on her playmates stiff cock, and slowly, deliberately ease all the way down, her pussy engulfing his cock with warmth and pleasure. She does this, because she knows I am watching her fuck. I get excitement from watching her curvy ass slide and bounce up and down on another mans cock. I love watching her being an object of sexual desire. I love watching the looks of pleasure that wash across her face as she nears climax with another man.

He fucked her for several hours this night, they paced themselves and took breaks when things heated up beyound what either of them ccould take. She sucked his long fat cock with great skill and talent to get him hard after each break. Towards the end of the night, he was fucking her while she lay flat on her stomach, his legs stradeling her thighs. He pumped her furiously in this position, I could tell he was about to unload. This is a very exciting yet scary moment for a husband to witness. He is inside her without a condom, he could decide to pull out and cover her with his seed. He could also just blow it all inside her. There is nothing I can do to stop what was about to happen. I knew my wife knew he was about to cum, but she said nothing.


She was about to orgasm too and I knew she would not interupt that. He did not pull out. He gave a heavy groan, thrust deeply and then he spasmed as he filled my wife with his sperm.

Hard to describe the feelings I had at that moment. Lisa knew this guy well and felt comfortable with him. When he pulled out, she was exhausted and satisfied and very happy, saying 'that was soooo great!'. As she lay face down on the bed, her friend reached over and grabbed her ass, gently spreading her cheeks, revealing her now loose lips. Lisa's pussy was still contracting, slowly opening and closing, I was still in shock having witnessed this, I was somehow still video taping and I remember wondering if I was going to see his cum leak from her as I had seen countless times in porn movies. It did not leak really out, I could see it, it was in there, but he had made his deposit very deeply.

He would become a frequent partner of Lisa's and they have played and met several times since then.

When we returned home, I began thinking about what had happened and how things had changed so rapidly over the past year or 2. I never imagined the woman I had married a few years earlier would transform in such a profound way. Lisa was never promiscuous in her teens or 20's and it seemed very out of character to me. In considering this, I had to ask myself why this was happening. It seemed like I was on a train that had suddenly jumped the tracks and was headed in a totally different direction.

Our home life was still happy, we had a young child, a comfortable lifestyle and a great family. Yet, sexually, Lisa seemed restless and very adventurous. I began to think...this really isn't that bad, we are still happy, she just likes the excitement of this and I figured I wasn't really providing that for her. She didn't want to have affairs, or relationships with the men she had been with. She simply wanted sex. And it wasn't like she was doing it every day, or every week even. It was only when she got restless and I guess a bit horny.
I also recognized that all of these trists had a common link which was alcohol. Lisa seemed to loose her inhibitions with a few drinks, which I guess also seemed normal.

Somewhere during this timeframe I began to just accept that this was going to happen from time to time, and that it wasn't all that bad. Although the vision of these other men using my wife as if she was a slut was a bit hard to swallow, it was also exciting to see her in such a state of extacy.

These thoughts began to creep into my head more and more frequently and I would sometimes what the video to try to find clues as to what really turned Lisa on about these trysts. While on the one hand seeing the replay of other men fucking my wife was like awefull for me, it was also exciting. I remember watching the videos and thinking... if she just said no when he put his hands on her thigh, if she just didn't kiss him back or hadn't spread her legs as he ran his hands up her dress... this might turn out differently. But each time I saw how willing and wanting she was, seemingly needing what this other man was about to give her.

So this was clearly the beginning of a journey for us as a couple. We didn't know how long it would last or how to really deal with it but we were going to stay together as a happily married couple and see where this would lead. Day to day life was as normal as any, but there was a secret side of Lisa that no one else knew of other than her and I, and the men who had fucked her.

I found myself thinking about the guys she had been with and what they must be thinking. 3 of them had fucked her right in front of me, with no consideration, regret or guilt about it whatsoever. They must think I'm such a jerk to just sit by and let them fuck my wife and use her. Another (a family friend) had fucked her while i was away on a business trip and we would see him around town often. He knew he fucked Lisa of course, but he didn't realize Lisa had told me what they had done. Another fucked her while she was on a business trip. They all knew she was married, and they fucked her anyway.

Lisa and I didn't talk too much about it at this time, this was a very compartmentalized thing for us at this point. It struck me how normal we must seem to others in day to day life. It hit me one day while we were at a local amusement park with our kid. There she was, a 30 something mom, holding her 4 year olds hand waiting to go on the tea cup ride.

Yet we had a secret that no one could know. No one would ever suspect that the woman standing next to them had this promiscuous side, she had been fucked by 5 differnt men. Lisa had sexual needs and desires that I was not satisfying. I was beginning to accept that this small portion of our lives was something we were going to be dealing with for awhile.