sexually empowering another man

After her last two meetings we talked about where things were going. Over the past 2 months, She had picked up and fucked a 26 year old at his house and had brought home a young black guy and had sex with him in our bedroom after locking me out.

Lisa explained to me how she felt sexy and excited by meeting these 2 men on her own. She said it made her feel good to know that younger men were still attracted to her and that they still wanted and desired her sexually. She told me how she often felt like she had lost her appeal to the opposite sex and was just a wife and a mom. As much as I tried to tell her that this was not the case, she needed affirmation from other men, and she sought it out and of course she found it.

She went on to explain what went on when she met them, and how she decided that she wanted them to fuck her. She was care full not to say too much and clearly wanted to spare my feelings but she wanted me to understand this for some reason.




She said the 26 year old had approached her while she sat at the bar and they made friendly small talk. He noticed her wedding ring and asked where her husband was. She said he was home, and that she was out by herself. He said that it was hot that

she was married and out alone and they talked about that for quite awhile. She told me that he seemed very intrigued by that fact that she was married, and this began to excite her alot. He started to flirt with her, telling her how sexy she was and touching her back and putting his hand on her bare leg. As this transpired she said she had such a feeling of excitement. This young man knew she was married and was obviously turned on by this. This, she said 'made her hot'.

He started asking provocative questions...how would her husband feel if he knew men were hitting on her? Would her husband mind if he knew she was with a younger guy? This type of conversation went on for about an hour with him. She pulled out her phone and sent me a text which basically said she had met someone, and would not be coming home. Then she showed him the text message she had just sent me. She said he paid the bar bill immediately - and they left together for his place.

Once they got to his place, they quickly moved to the bedroom. She told me that as they had sex he would say things about me...your husband can't fuck you the way you need to be fucked.

A big part of the excitement was the fact that he knew she was married, AND he knew that I knew that she was with him. She felt he was confident, assertive and self assured. He knew he was fucking another mans' wife, and it turned him on to do it. It turned her on to see him in control, and taking what was mine, but she knew she would return to me but didn't have to explain or apologize for what had happened.

I realized that she was explaining to me how I had been cuckolded that night. She was also telling me why she was cuckolding me. Lisa found it exciting to sexually empower another man over me. My wife felt empowered by giving herself to him. This is what I have learned about being a cuckold. For us it is all about sexual control and power.

Lisa and the men she beds have the control and power - and that is what excites her.

2006 or so

Around 2006 - Although not completely on board with this, I now began to looking forward helping Lisa find great people to meet. I had a role, it seemed like it was something I could actually do to please my wife and I was accepting of the whole thing. So I placed some ads and chatted with alot of people. Most were douche bags, married cheaters, losers and generally men my wife would never be interested in. Some seemed to have a better understanding of the needs of a couple and were comfortable in the role of sex object. And that's all they were. An object of sexual gratification for my wife. She was not getting that from me, and as I went through this somewhat painful screening process I felt that I had some control. I was soon enlightened on just how little control I had. A few weeks went by. Lisa and I had a spat one Saturday afternoon. I have no clue what it was about at this point, but whatever it was, it was meaningless. The kids were sleeping at freinds house that night. Fter an afternoon of the silent treatment, at around 7PM Lisa disappeared, she showered, she blew out her hair, she dressed and came down to the kitchen. She was wearing black slacks, heels and a low cut blouse. I asked where she was going and she just said, 'I'm going out'. I asked where, she just said she wasn't sure. A few ninutes later, she was in the car pulling out of the driveway. At 11PM I called her. No answer. She called back at 11:30, she said she was at a bar, she had met someone and told me to strighten up the house because she would be home soon. She said he was driving her home and would be coming in for a while. We hung up, I straightend things up and waited. To this day I'm not sure what made me do this but I placed our camcorder in the sitting area of the bedroom and turned it on. At 12:15 the door opened, Lisa walked in and introduced me to her freind,he was at least 6'4, completely ripped and black. She told to pour them drinks and then said they were going up to our bedroom. I handed them the drinks, they went up and closed the door. I waited. I heard no sounds. After 40 minutes I knocked on my bedroom door and she told me to come in. She was sitting by the fireplace with him. They were embracing, sitting close to each other and looked like they had been interrupted. I sat with them for while, trying to make small talk but it was clear that I was not really welcome. Finally she took me aside, she said, 'He has a 9 inch cock and he's going to fuck me in our bed tonight' then asked me to leave, and to close the door behind me. I left them for a while then curiosity got to me and I quietly opened the door just a crack. Lisa yelled 'Close the door!' then came over to lock it. As she walked over, I could see she was wearing something very different than she had on before, it was a sexy light green bra, garter and stockings which I had bought her a few years ago. She whispered to me, 'He doesn't want you around, so please go downstairs'. Then she locked the door. I went to the kitchen which is just below our bedroom. For the next 2 hours I listened to this black guy fucking the hell out or my wife. I sat there litenting through each of their orgasms, and there were several for each of them, from what I could tell. I imagined what he must be feeling each time I heard her moan or scream, I began to masterbate, and in a way fantasizing and living vicariously through what he was doing with my wife. At around 4am the door opened, then footsteps down the stairs. He came over and shook my hand and said 'your wife just wore me out'. Then he left. I went upstairs. The sheets were completely off the bed, Lisa was naked and half asleep. She stirred as I got into bed then she rolled over. I saw the his dried cum on her tits and belly. The bedding was damp, with her cum or his, I was not sure which. She pulled me close and whispered, 'I'm not mad anymore'. Then she kissed me and then she slept. Below is a small clip which captured some of the initial part of the evening she spent with him. The rest occured in our bed and was not captured on film - but the sounds I heard are forever burned into my memory.

2009 pick up - Text messages to hubby

Just ran across these photos I took of the cell phone text messages Lisa sent on the night I described in the post below. I snapped these the next morning, they are pretty much as described in the story below. Although some of the times were wrong I think you will get the picture, thought you might want to see them.

After A very brief lull

There was a brief lull after the last encounter, during which I began to believe that my wife had gotten this out of her system. I was very wrong. She brought up the subject one evening after we went out to dinner with some freinds. She asked me if I thought anyone of our freinds wives did what she did...What would they think if they knew that she had sex with other men, and that I accepted it. It was a rhetorical question, she did not really expect an answer, and I certainly had none. But it made me realize how unusual our marriage had become, at least the sexual aspect of it. The rest of our married life was as normal as any other.

She then told me that she thought I had been wonderful at helping her find suitable partners, that I should devote more effort to this so that she could continue to enjoy this new found freedom. She told me it made her feel sexy and alive to get the sexual attention from other men. She told me it excited her to have me there watching her, she felt very much in control and safe at the same time. I agreed that it was working out well for her and i would post ads to find people she would like to meet.

After posting several ads, I began to get emails and contact requests on yahoo IM. Many were from husbands who wanted their wives to have sex with other men. They asked for advice, I would always respond that I had none...my wife is the one that wanted this, not me. I told them to be careful what they wished for. It seems there are alot of husbands in this catagory - wanna bees. Franlkly I do not understand this at all.

I realized that there is a very fundamental difference between a husband who encourages his wife to have sex with other men, and a husband whose wife has sex with other men on her own initiative. For Lisa, there were 2 things that motivated her to change the sexual nature of our marriage. First and foremost was her strong sex drive and her inability to have vaginal orgasms with a 'small' cock. To some women I guess size isn't important. For Lisa, it seems that only a big cock can give her the powerful orgasms that she likes. Secondly, meeting men reaffirmed her sexuality and her feeling desirable, which hightened her sexual desires and motivation to be with other men even further.


I placed some ads on swinger sites. I posted just a few and the response was overwhelming. So many men were interested in seeing what it was like to be a 'cuckold'. It also generated interest from hundreds of men who wanted to fuck my wife. I began screening them through chats and through photo exchanges. I knew what Lisa wanted, and I would not let her settle for men who were not to her liking. If I didn't choose wisely, that would disapoint her and whatever sexual value I had as her husband would be diminished by making bad choices.

I would show her the photos of men I thought might be suitable and she would choose who she was interested in meeting. Alot of black men were interested in her and when I showed her the photos, she invariably was chosing black men, or men with great physiques and large cocks. When I say large, she wanted the hugest ones. Always 8-12 inches were the preference. She told me she was always attracted to black men, the taboo nature of having sex with them. She told me that it would be exciting for her that I would be watching her, that I would watch a black man take her and please her sexually.

Things began to change rapidly. She went out one evening alone while I was out visiting with some freinds. I came home around 11 PM and she was still not home. She had gone to a bar in town and text me around 11:15 saying she had met someone, she would be home later. 30 mins later another text. She was leaving the bar - with him.
She said 'he's 26 and he wants me, I'm going to his place'.

She texted me again at 1:30 and said 'I will see you in the morning'

I lay in bed thinking what was most likely happening at that very moment. I admit that I masterbated while thinking of this. I knew he was fucking her and I could not stop it. I had no way to find her and even if I did nothing could stop it now, she had made up her mind.

She came home at 5am. Disheveled and worn out. I had not slept but was in bed waiting for her. She took off her clothes and lay next to me. I could smell his cologne on her. She asked if I was awake, I asked her where she had been, and she just said...'he fucked me'. I asked who 'he' was, where did she meet him, why didn't she just come home. She said his name is Nick, he's 26 and he took her to his house where he lived with 2 freinds. His freinds went to bed, and she went to his room and he fucked her for several hours.

She got on top of me and pulled my hand down between her legs, and said 'do you feel that?' Her pussy was slippery and soaked. She pushed rolled over, spread her legs and pulled me close, her hand went between her legs then came back up and she pushed her finger into my mouth, saying 'that's what we did'. Then she gently pushed my head down between her legs. She said 'I want you to lick me'. There was no question she had been with a man from the scent of cologne on her body. Now there was no question that he had fucked her, her pussy tasted salty, I new what it was, but could not beleive this was happening. She held my head, bucked her hips and said 'Eat it, do you taste it?'. As I licked her, she told me he came twice, she said she made a 26 year old cum, that it was the most exciting thing she ever felt, 'do you taste his cum?' I said nothing.

She pulled me up towards her and guided me inside her. her pussy was different, it was very loose, it was obviously filled with his cum, and as i pressed inside her she told me 'his cum is in there, you know'. I could take no more and within a few seconds I exploded inside her. She lay there for a few minutes, then She rolled over stradeled my face and said 'lick me again, make me cum'.

I knew she had not orgasmed with me, but I also knew that she knew I had cum while inside her-and here she was stradeling my face. She said 'I want you taste your cum', she spread her legs and began to rock back and forth. She was not taking no for an answer, and I was in no position to argue, she smiled, and her eyes rolled back in her head as i licked her pussy. A few minutes later she orgasmed, and as she did she kept saying 'eat it, eat it'. She seemed to be enjoying my discomfort in a way I can't really explain. I didn't know why she would want this, I had no idea really, but it excited her in a way I had never seen before. The next day she slept until 3PM and said nothing of the night before. She never saw that guy again as far as I know.

Lisa sees him again

A few months later, Lisa asked to see one of her friends she had been with twice before. I arranged for us to meet at the hotel bar nearby where we had met him before. He was the man she had been with in my "closer to home" posting earlier. I had chatted with him several times since our most recent meetings and He was quite anxious to get together with her again as well. We got to the bar and ordered drinks, he arrived soon after. Within 30 mins or so Lisa told me to get the room, so I went to the front desk and did as she asked. When I returned they were sitting close to each other and laughing, chatting and having a good time. The bar was crowded so we decided to leave. Lisa told me to get her bag from the car and they would proceed to the room. When I arrived they were on the bed, I turned on the camera and watched as they embraced. They were still dressed and a few minutes later, she called me over to the bed and told me to remove her clothes, I helped her out of her dress, then unclipped her bra. Her breasts spilled from the double D cups and he quickly moved into place and sucked on each of them as I sat on the bed. She motioned me to leave them alone, so I moved away and tuned on the camera. Of course she wanted his cock, and leaned over and blew him while looking at me the whole time. She slowly sucked his huge cock and looked at me smiling. Oddly I kept looking at her wedding ring on her finger and she stroked his cock with her hand and jerked him into her mouth. After several minutes he spread her legs and licked her pussy while I removed myself from the bed. He positioned his cock at the entrance to her pussy, then slowly and deliberately pushed himself inside my wife. He is about 9 inches long and very thick, but he was completely inside Lisa within 30 seconds.

He fucked my wife in many positions as he always did and she also sucked his cock in between many of them. Towards the end of the night, he had Lisa laying face down on the bed, and entered her from behind. As the pace of his strokes increased so deep the moans coming from my wife. At this point a thought came to me - he had pulled out the first time they were together, but he did not pull out the second time...

What would happen this time. As I sat there watching his excitement build I became very anxious. It's hard to describe the feeling of not knowing. He was in control, and he would decide. Will he pull out on his own? Will she ask him to pull out? I do not dare say anything because it will interrupt her pleasure, but I hope that he does pull out. It's one thing to see a guy fuck my wife - i have gotten used to that at this point. But when he inseminates my wife it's a very uncomfortable feeling. It's a different level, knowing his sperm is swimming inside her brings it to another level. The pace quickens, he groans, he drives deep and does not pull out. He has cum inside my wife Lisa. He stay in her for a few moments, then rolls off. She is still laying face down on the bed when He leans over and spreads her cheeks. He says nothing but instinctively I know what he's doing - he does it to show me the proof. They laugh and chat for a few minutes, then he kisses her goodbye and leaves.

When a man leaves our hotel room after fucking my wife, it is always very strange for me. I always wonder what I should say...'Thank you' doesn't seem appropriate. Lisa said it for me, and also told him she was sure we would see him again soon. After he left Lisa summoned me over to the bed where she still lay. She told me to take my clothes off and lay with her. I could smell his scent on her as I lay next to her. She brought my hand between her legs, she bucked her hips gently and said 'He came'. That's all she said. I could feel the liquid between her lips. Her hands pulled me towards her, and she told me to suck on her tits. Her hands went to my head, she gently but deliberately pressed my head down further.

She spread her legs and said 'lick my pussy'. I told her I would get a towel, my intention being to wipe things up before licking her. She said, 'No, I want you to lick it' and pressured my head between her legs. I understood this later as a more extreme form of cuckolding. She tasted slightly salty but I was not disgusted as I had expected I might be. I licked her clit mostly, and as she got more excited, she would grind her hips towards my mouth, harder and harder, telling me to put my tongue inside her to make her cum, she was close I could tell.

A moment later she orgasmed, which is a great accomplishment for me, as she rarely has orgasmed with me any more. As she gasped, her held my head and at that moment gravity and her excitement began to have an effect on the cum he had deposited so deeply inside her. She held my head and said, 'EAT IT!, EAT IT!, EAT HIS CUM' After feeling happy to have brought her to orgasm, now I felt humiliated and used as His seed flowed like a lazy river from Lisa's orgasmic contractions. She implored me not to stop, so I continued as she asked. Deep down I guess I knew that she wanted this, for me to eat the sperm he had filled her with. When she caught her breath she continued to hold my head between her thighs, then started to talk to me about what she had just done. She said 'Did you eat it? You ate his cum...He fucked your wife and then you ate his cum, how do you feel? That makes me so hot, how did you like that?' She pulled me up towards her and kissed me deeply. She said she loved me, and grabbed my dick and stroked it gently. She said 'I want you to fuck me now', she spread her legs and pulled me towards her. As I entered her, there was no resistance. She said 'He stretched me didn't he? He fucked me but I still love you, he has a BIG cock, do you feel what he did to me?'. I could feel that she was different now, the result of several hours of intense sex with a man who was double my size in both length and width. Her pussy was so wet, so wide open and slippery smooth and at that moment she said... 'you know his sperm is still swimming inside me? You know that don't you? Don't you?' A moment later I came. There are no words to describe this event, except to say that I realized that Lisa was getting off on this, she was truly intending on cuckolding and that was a big part of what excited her about being with other men. It wasn't just that she needed a man with a bigger cock to orgasm, she also loved to be in control sexually, to control me sexually and for the men she was with to also be in control. There was no other explanation.

You can see some of what I saw that night in the clip below, full video of all of Lisa's experiences with other men can be seen at diary-of-a-real-hotwife

Another vacation, this time 2 men fuck my wife

It was time for our annual vacation. Lisa arranged for care for the kids while we were away and we were looking forward to a relaxing week in the Caribbean. Three weeks before leaving Lisa told me she wanted to really relax and asked if we could do something 'fun'?' I knew what she meant. I told her it might be nice for us to just reconnect ourselves and just have a normal vacation like we used to. She insisted and asked to me to see if there were anyone we could meet, would I be able to find someone for just one fun night. I said finally relented and told her 'I'll see what I can do...'. I placed an add on a site that caters to such activities. Over the next week I began getting messages on yhoo IM from a man from the island we were going to. He said he was interested in meeting Lisa and I for a drink and lived about an hours drive from where we were staying. We exchanged a few photos. He loved Lisa's look, and seemed like a nice clean cut guy who Lisa would get along with. I showed Lisa his face photo and she told me 'He looks nice, let's meet him'. 'Mark' gave us his phone number and said to call when we had a free night. We arrived at the hotel and had a few relaxing days at the resort. Lisa spent some time shopping, and came back with a few bathing suites and short black mesh dress. She looked great in it but it was not what she ordinarily chose. It was very short, with a low cut neckline and was mesh which was slightly see through. With 4 nights left, Lisa told me this was for our 'special night'. The next morning over breakfast Lisa asked if I had called Mark yet. She said we should get together with him because we'd be heading home in a few days. I called him and we arranged to meet him. He would come to our hotel in the afternoon to meet and since we had planned on going diving that afternoon, he would join us. When he arrived, Lisa hit it off very well with him. He was about 26, and Lisa liked him right away. We soon left for the dive. Once on the dive boat I became alittle seasick so Lisa buddies up with Mark for her dives. As the boat returned to the dock, Lisa invited him to meet us for drinks after dinner. he eagerly agreed and we arranged to meet around 8PM in our hotel bar. We were running late that evening, so while Lisa finished getting ready, she sent me to the bar to meet Mark. I sat there for 30 minutes nervously waiting. Soon he tapped me on the shoulder, shook my hand and introduced me to his Friend. He had brought one of his buddies. He said his Friend needed a ride over to our area and he had given him a ride. Deep down I think I knew what they both wanted. I called Lisa and told her that Mark had arrived and we were waiting in the bar for her. She arrived a few minutes later, gave Mark a big kiss and then he introduced his Friend. She was surprised by this, but went with it and we all talked for about an hour over drinks. We all had a few drinks at the bar and then she told me she wanted to get a bottle of wine and go back to the room. She invited Marks Friend to join us. Lisa went to the room with both of them and I went to get a bottle of wine at a local store. When I got to the room I opened the wine for us all. The guys seemed uncomfortable so Lisa asked me if I would mind staying out on the balcony for a while. She whispered to me that I could turn on the camera but just leave it on the table, then she opened the door and got down to business. She went to the other room and put on a see thru nightie and sat on the bed with Mark, he started by giving her a back massage. They undressed each other as I watched from the balcony. Lisa sucked his big cock and looked over at me, smiling at me with his cock in her mouth. He got her up on her knees and fingered my wife from behind as she blew him. I could see him put 3 fingers into her wet pussy before turning her over and sliding his cock inside her. His Friend just sat and sipped his wine patiently and watched while my wife got it going with Mark. I had been asked to leave the room but his buddy saw the camera and picked it up and videoed Lisa sucking and getting fucked by his buddy. He soon put the camera down and joined them on the bed. I began to masturbate on the balcony as Mark fucked her from behind and his Friend walked to the edge of the bed, my wife taking his cock into her mouth and started to suck blow him. They did this for 10 minutes or so, then switched positions. These two men were fucking my wife, as I sat on the balcony masturbating. I had a hard time understanding how quickly this all unfolded, this was unbelievable to me, but was happening and I could not or would not be able to stop it now They then took turns fucking my wife as if she was some slut. I watched from the balcony as Mark fucked her from behind, his Friend video taping as he pulled out and came all over Lisa's ass and back. He spread his cum on my wife's ass and back and then his Friend took his turn. Lisa soon brought his Friend to orgasm with her mouth, taking his load on her face and tits. They left around 3AM and Lisa let me in to say goodbye to them. They were laughing as they left, telling me that next time I should send her on vacation alone. Lisa laughed and agreed. She was exhausted and sticky with their cum. I could see it on her face and neck. As I lay next to her in the bed, the scent of their cum was unmistakable and kept me awake most of the rest of the night. She told me the next day that she had never been so excited as she was last night. She thanked me for not interfering and staying on the balcony. She said it was comforting knowing I was close by, but liberating knowing that I was not a part of it. She said she felt badly for me, and that she also felt 'like a whore and a bit slutty'. I knew she was not a whore, she would never have sex with someone for money. But she had reached a new level of slutty-ness. But she said did not regret it at all, because it was an 'amazing experience'. On the plane ride home, I can't help but feel we have reached yet another level.

As of this point in 2003, my wife had been fucked by 11 different men during our 15 year marriage - all within the past 3 years or so. Our life together was otherwise very normal and happy. She seemed content with the arrangement and suprisingly, I began to feel more comfortable with what she was doing - even though I didn’t fully understand it. I felt good that she was not a cheater and never lied about what she was doing. In fact, she seemed to enjoy the fact that I knew she was enjoying other men. The fact that she was truthful was good, but I often wondered why she seemed to relish in telling me about the men who she gave herself to and how she seemed to enjoy it so much. After her last encounter she confided that she found it exciting knowing that this man wanted her and that they both got off on calling me and telling me what they were doing.

I sometimes would get the sense that she was in a way saying: these men are enjoying me and pleasing me more than I ever would or could. Having other men want her seemed to affirm her sexuality, she seemed to get a sense of power and sensuality from it. This seemed to excite her and incite her to take things further, And further it would go…

I began to do some research about this sort of thing. What was it that would motivate an otherwise normal, healthy happily married woman, the mother of our 3 children to behave this way? Had I done something to cause this? It was during my research that I first read in detail about the word 'CUCKOLD'. I had heard the term but not fully understood its' meaning. I found that what she was doing had all the signposts of cuckolding. A wife who is sexually promiscuous with the knowledge of her husband. It seemed to matter little if the husband accepted his wife’s infidelity, but it was clear that in the truest sense of the word, it was the wife who was the one to initiate cuckolding. Lisa came into my office one evening while doing this reading, and we had a very frank discussion about what had been going on for the past few years. While she had never known the meaning of the word CUCKOLD, as she read some of the published articles, it was clear to us both that this was now part of our married life.

Lisa was fascinated with the subject and over the next few months I would often find her reading stories and sometimes watching videos on the internet. She never hid it from me, and in fact seemed to enjoy sharing what she was seeing and learning. Many times the videos she watched involved interracial scenes, and while I didn’t think much of it at the time, in retrospect this was a big part of inner desires.
She would sometimes send me links to stories that she found arousing or interesting to her, most of them had cuckold themes or undercurrents. A few examples that stick in my mind are: The wife taking a lover, while the husband waited anxiously at home then returning and denying him, a middle aged wife having sex a young black man who was working at their home, a wife stumbling upon a bachelor party in Vegas and then becoming the entertainment for 10-15 young men.

Cuckolding is all about control, my wife controling her sexuality, and mine as it turns out. Years later I would find out what this was all about and why she was so fascinated by it.