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Saturday, March 31, 2018

After all these years

You would think I would be used to this cuckold thing by now. I guess in a way I am, but at the same time my stomach is always in knots when I know she's meeting someone - especially if it's someone new. The 'not knowing' what is going to happen aspect always causes me anxiety in the days and hours leading up to a date.

Of course, I really know what is going to happen when she meets a guy. The bottom line is, my wife is most likely going to let another man fuck her. I know it, she knows it, and usually the guy is pretty sure as well.  I suppose the desire for sexual satisfaction has many nuances, but I do still struggle to accept that Lisa gets her satisfaction from other men.


If you have followed our journey through the years, you probably know Lisa has had a steady regular sex partner for the last 2 or 3 years. Since she's been with him, I don't often worry anymore about who she is with or if she's safe. Her bull likes her a lot and visa versa and he would never do anything to her detriment. She met him when he was 28 and Lisa was 50, He's still only 31 years old now, he's a tall athletic black man with a very large cock and he absolutely loves fucking my wife.  The two of them get the sexual satisfaction they both need and want and are otherwise not getting.

They get together alone a lot now. I'm not able to see what happens very much anymore. As hard as it was to watch it, it is sometimes harder to not watch - to not know. On the rare occasions when I'm allowed to watch, I'm not allowed to video anymore. He's very dominant with me, and he has decided this is how it will be. As you may have seen is some of our videos, He usually refers to me as 'cuck', as a means of showing Lisa he is superior. Lisa goes along with whatever he says, so there is really no way for me to change that aspect anymore until He changes his mind.

 For most husbands, if a guy looks or touches their wife, they become suspicious and will intervene.
But I'm a cuckold husband and it's different for me. Cuckolds are conditioned to expect that men will look at and touch what's theirs. Over the years, Lisa has gradually conditioned me to accept allowing other guys to be with her sexually.  I know, deep down.  the reason for my 'conditioning' is that I was not able to step up to the plate. Unable to please her sexually, I gradually allowed myself to become a cuckold by not putting a stop to Lisa's many extra-marital conquests.





I wasn't able to put a stop to it because deep down I knew the truth. There was no question - I did not have the size and stamina that Lisa needs. I have only four weak inches to offer her and it is not nearly enough.  But to her credit, she gently let me know it and She also came up with a solution - she would get the sex from men who had what she needed, and I would be there to ensure her safety, and able to watch.
By not stopping it right there, I became compliant and weak -  to both Lisa and to the men she meets.











This is the slippery slope of cuckolding, for me at least.  My acceptance of the bulls dominance over me has emboldened the bulls and Lisa. Many bulls feed off of my compliance and weakness and use it to gain the upper hand with my wife. They see it as their opening to show my wife that she should look to them for sex and not to me -  her husband. This makes them even more naturally dominant with me. Lisa's current bull does this in several ways, first, he never calls me by my name. From the first night we met him for drinks at the hotel bar, he has only called me 'CUCK'.  Lisa has never once defended me in this regard or asked him to call me by my name. Then again, although she often refers to me as a cuckold, she herself has never called me 'cuck' (which seems so much more demeaning to me) - so I guess I should be happy about that.






When I watch them, I am in a chastity lock, the key is usually worn by her around her ankle bracelet.
As she gets fucked, I see and hear the key and the locket dangling there, both are there to remind me that I'm being cuckolded.

Last year I started to put all the pieces of my cuckolding together into a video story that would make sense to me. Basically, it's an explanation to myself on how I became a cuckold husband. So far I've posted 10 chapters of this video 'book' and the most recent 'Chapter' is a good example of how the verbal and physical queues of Lisa's current bull change how she sees me. One must remember this is only their second 'date' but in looking back, it's so obvious to me now what he was and still is doing. By calling me 'cuck', ordering me to apply lube, or 'Put it in', he was able to change her perception of me from her 'husband' to the 'cuck'.

Here is the link to my video book where you can see how I became 'Cuck'



Monday, March 5, 2018

Realizations and rationalization

After almost 25 years of living this unusual marital arrangement, I realize the affect it has had on both of us. Our marriage is very solid despite the sexual tension that I guess comes naturally within our cuckold relationship.  Sex and intimacy are important to any marriage, and so it would seem that cuckolding might hinder that. Because I'm a cuckold husband, there is little or no sex for me with my wife.  But we both understand why that is.

Lisa is a mature woman who has a strong sex drive. As she has gotten older, her desires have increased and she knows that I can't stop her from acting on them. She knows I've accepted all this -  her desires, unfulfilled needs - some days that's a lot harder for me than it probably seems to you all.

I know I can stimulate her to orgasm with my tongue, but I know that I've never been able to bring her to climax through intercourse. This is a very difficult fact for a husband to realize and accept, but that is the truth. I've seen her climax with men who are unbelievably huge, and even men that are just adequately endowed -  so knowing I can't possibly compete is somewhat disheartening. But she loves me, not them, we have a great family and a great life despite the sexual realities. After all, sex is just one aspect of a relationship.

Even at 54 years of age, I know Lisa is very desirable. I see it when we go out, guys look at her with lust. Her shape still invokes primal desires - she has big full breasts, a small waist and wide but proportional hips. An hourglass shape.  It's a figure that make men naturally think of sex.

A Soccer mom by day
Approached by a guy 20 minutes after I took this picture 
He fucked her later that night.

Her willingness to indulge in it, reinforces this is a very real way for me. In other words, I know she is sexy, she knows she is sexy and other men know she is sexually desirable - but she chooses to have sex with men who satisfy her, rather than me - her husband, the cuckold. That sums it all up.

Watching her with the other men allowed me to imagine what it would be like to please her the way they do. I fantasize about being them as I watched them fucking my wife, living vicariously through these men. As I watch, I remember what it felt like to be inside her. The warmth and wetness of her pussy, the thrusts of her hips as they rise to accept the thrusts as deep as possible.

Her current bull has told me that he feels her cum, when he hits 'bottom'. I had never heard this term, so I asked him what he meant and he told me 'hitting bottom' means his cock was rubbing up against her cervix. So his black cock could actually reach and press against my wife's womb.  And He knew that he had made her orgasm that way and he wanted me to know. He is 10+ inches of 30 year-old rock hard BBC - I then I knew why she wants him and not me.
Met him online

Ultimately sex is about satisfying a need or a desire. I know, that Every man that Lisa has been with, whether alone or while I watched, was satisfied by her pussy. And every man who fucked her, made her climax with their cock. Except for me.
Filled 

Witnessing other men ejaculating in my wife is something that has always caused me a great amount of anxiety and I know need to write more about soon.  I will talk more about the moment of climax in my next post.




She knows what boys want



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Thursday, February 15, 2018

Cuckold - unprepared for the unexpected

It's been a while since my last post so if this is somewhat out of context please understand.

If you have followed this blog you know that my wife Lisa has gradually become more assertive about her desires.  She's been with many men and at this point harbors no reservations about getting what she wants and letting her passions run freely. Meanwhile I've become accustomed to all this, from just watching, waiting for her to come home, being chastised, prepping, the cleanup and humiliation of knowing that I am a cuckold husband.

I've learned over the years that the men she meets can really fall into 3 categories:

  1. Men who just want sex - These guys are normal red blooded males who are simply attracted to her and want to fuck her. They prefer that I'm nowhere in sight, but they put up with my presence to get the chance to fuck Lisa.
  2. Men who like fucking other men's wives - These men are turned on by Lisa but they also like the idea of fucking my wife and having me see it and know it. They have often been verbally disrespectful to me, but I know this is part of what they want out of the experience. Fucking my wife makes them superior, they are the 'alpha male', top dog and they want me to know it.
  3. True Bulls - These men have a high sex drive and large cocks, they not only want to fuck my wife, they usually also want to inseminate her - and they want me to see them do it. They want my wife to view me as a cuckold and as submissive to them.  They want her to witness and be a part of how they dominate me, so that she will reject me and accept them as her bull. I realize that over the years, this has become increasingly easy for true bulls, because I 'm now conditioned to accept their superiority. They get off by Cuckolding me, just as much as they get off by fucking Lisa.

Lisa has a definite preference for True Bulls. The more dominant they are towards me, the more excited she seems to get. Experienced bulls instinctively know this, and I guess it makes sense, because she sees them as being my replacement in the bedroom.  They are bigger, stronger, younger and better sexual partners than I am. They've taken my place and I guess I've allowed it. As the cuckolding progressed, and she met more men, I didn't realize that she would I would never regain my place as someone she wanted to have sex with.

A few years ago, at the urging of her bulls, Lisa and took cuckolding to the next level.  I knew I was in trouble when her bull forced his cock down my throat when Lisa was in the ladies room. I mean, we just met him an hour earlier and as soon as she stepped out of the room, he unzipped his pants,  grabbed my by the back of my head, slapped my face with it and then shoved it in my mouth. Then, after he fucked her, he did this again, but this time while she watched.

  The bull


Lisa pushing 


Feeding it 

The guy was HUGE and I guess the combination of his size and domination turned my wife on so much that Lisa got on top of me and started forcing my head down on him.
It was the most humiliating experience I have ever had, but I felt I had to do what they wanted and I felt completely powerless to stop it.

Weeks later as I thought about what happened that night I realized it had nothing to do with bi or gay sex, it was strictly domination and submission. I submitted completely to him (and then to both of them) and I saw how this turned my wife on. The bull clearly reveled in how he turned my wife on, how he controlled me - and by controlling me, he actually gained sexual control of my wife.


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Wednesday, December 23, 2015

The moment I became a cuckold husband

The moment I became a cuckold
Lisa has had many men over the past 20 or so years. I've gotten over the most uncomfortable parts of this and I would say that our marriage is a happy one and otherwise normal. I get it, I understand why I've become a cuckolded husband. The thought of another man having sex with my wife is both gut wrenching and somehow exciting for me.

For me, being a cuckold means I've been rejected and replaced sexually. Another man has taken my place in this most intimate part of our marriage. Seeing her fully accept another man, knowing that he knows that I know that she wants him (and not me) is not easy to accept. I realize that most bulls goal is to fuck my wife and I know the bull couldn't care less about how I feel about that.

When a bull comes into the relationship, he alters an existing bond between two people. There is an emotional bond and a sexual bond in most good marriages. Lisa and I have agreed there should never be anything that interferes or hurts our emotional bond. We both feel that the strong emotional bond is required to give us both the comfort to include a third person in the sexual part of our relationship.
However, the sexual bond is entirely different. Not only CAN the bull break that bond, he MUST break it. Breaking our sexual bond, and then bonding sexually with my wife is the essential part of cuckolding and every bull must understand this.  When it comes to sex, Lisa should think of her bull first and only.


So how does the bull break the sexual bond of a couple?

Believe it or not, in our case it happened when the bull suggested to Lisa that I should be involved. It can happen in many ways I suppose but no matter how it happens the bull must remain in charge. Have the cuckold suck his wife’s breasts or rub her clit when you’re fucking her. Have him grab her ankles and pull her legs wider apart when you’re pumping your cock into her. Have him go down on her before you fuck her, to get her wet and ready. Have him kiss his wife deeply while you make her cum. All these things have led to my cuckolding.


You can do anything you want, as long as he gets involved. At times when he’s doing something be sure tell him to stop and go sit back down. Show him that you’re in control. Another thing to do is tell him to take out his inferior dick out and masturbate while he's watching his wife get fucked. Tell him to cum while watching his wife getting laid. Again, use your imagination, as long as you’re telling him reasonable things to do. Remember, the wife will be watching too, and she will notice how much more dominant you’re becoming.


How does the bull ultimately cuckold the husband?


Once things have progressed to this point the wife should really be into you, and should see you as the Alpha Male. In her eyes, you should have completely replaced her husband in the bedroom. If she still seems to split her allegiance between him and you, or if you just want to take it to a deeper level, consider the ultimate step: making the husband put your cock in his mouth.

Believe it or not this has nothing to do with gay or bi-male sex. It’s strictly about domination. If you’ve ever watched wildlife footage of a wolf pack, you’ve noticed the body language of other males when they’re around the dominant Alpha Male. They maintain a low body stance, and even physically roll over showing their underbelly. They submit completely. Not only does the Alpha Male see this, all of the female wolves notice it too. That’s why the Alpha Male gets the females.
My wife Before, so pretty and neat...
  
Entry about to begin

He's inside
11 inches of BBC Balls deep


Riding him
riding
Aftermath1, the mess he made

aftermath 2

aftermath 3

Aftermath 4



If you REALLY want the wife to be “yours” sexually, let her watch you being dominant over her husband. When the our true cuckolding started both Lisa and I would have agreed there is no way you could ever get me, her husband to suck the bulls cock. But in our case, in the heat of her passion, this particular bull enlisted her help to get me to do it. When you did get me to do it, I saw how it impressed her and aroused her at the same time. It is truly a power trip for the bull.
In this case, we’re NOT talking about a blowjob. That’s for the Lisa to do. He did this because he wanted my wife to see her own husband take his cock into his mouth.
Once things reached this point, Lisa saw him as the Alpha Male and she saw that I submitted to him. He knew it, Lisa knew it and I knew it.

Here is how it happened to me on that day in 2008


Several years ago (2008) we met this very dominant alpha bull, 30 years old, black with a cock the length of my forearm. This video is our first meeting with him, In fact it is partially comprised of a clip I posted here back in 2008. In that original clip, I edited out the parts you will see here. They were too difficult for me to accept at that time, but after 20 years of seeing my wife enjoy other men, I have come to terms with my lot as a cuckolded husband, The clip begins with foreplay as usual, then my wife reveals his huge black cock and begins to orally satisfy him. I video as she pleases him, quietly watching as things unfold. Moments later she tells me i'm going to 'get involved'. Her bull strokes and taunts me with his 11 inch cock and tells me to look at it, he tells my wife to 'push his head down on it' and moments later he is pushing it into my mouth. My wife, gets on top of my back and pushes my head down on it, then she reaches around and begins stroking it into my throat. He then lifts his BBC back and makes me lick his big black balls in front of my wife. Moments later I think that it is over, as he has turned his attention to my wife again. But instead, he stands up and shoves it in my mouth once again, then lays back and has her feed it to me. She then cuckolds me further, she strokes it into my mouth, as she continues to smile and watch. It is a very rare look at the moment of complete cuckolding and humiliation by my wife and a true bull. It is the beginning of my becoming a full cuckold to her and sub to the bull. This is how a bull cuckolds the husband - once he has gotten the wife to witness her husbands acceptance of another mans' dominance over him, she no longer sees the cuckold as a sexual partner, the bull has taken that from me in this video. In fact it makes you more of a Bull, because dominance is the essence of being the Bull. You're taking charge and asserting your dominance over them both, by demonstrating your dominance over him. Remember one simple fact: The more dominant the bull is over the husband, the more naturally submissive the husband and wife both become. This is the key to the relationship! It naturally reinforces the bulls dominance, and my wife will sexually always respond to that more. Women naturally gravitate toward the most dominant male. Its a part of their instincts, even if they don't realize it! You see when the bull forced me to suck his cock in front of my own wife then he proved to everyone that he's confident, capable and in charge. He proved that I'm willing to submit to him, and that is what makes a bull and what makes a cuck.

      
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The moment I became cuckold
              
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Friday, September 18, 2015

Cuckold Hub Gets Fed Bull Cum


Another hotel date, another night of cuckolding...Some background info first: The video is two parts of the same recent date. After fucking Lisa for several hours earlier in the evening, my wife and her bull sleep peacefully for several hours. I left the camera running and it captured the moments shortly before and after he left the hotel. Her bull needed to be at work early, so he set his alarm for 6 AM. When he woke, he also woke up Lisa and began to get his last licks in. He was laying next to her, both of them naked, spooning and soon began penetrating her. I lay next them, in my shorts, still locked in chastity and pretended to be asleep, but a few moments later, he noticed I had moved and he told me to lick her as he fucked her on her side. You can't see any of that part because we were under the covers. So this clip begins as he tells me lay on my back, Lisa quickly straddles my face, and her bull moves into position behind her to mount her doggy style. His black balls dangle near my face, he instructs me to "Stick it in...BITCH". I position his black cock at the entry to my wife's wet pussy and he begins to slowly work his way inside her. A few moments latter he is fucking her furiously, I can hear his balls slapping against Lisa's clit, as she moans with each powerful thrust of his BBC. He slows down, pulls her hips back towards his rigid member and drives his BBC deep, causing her to gasp as he reaches the opening of her womb. He continues fucking my wife passionately and he tells me to "Lick my balls...BITCH". I do as he asks, licking his big black balls over and over for him each time he partially withdraws his cock from my wife's pussy. His pace begins to quicken, Lisa tells him, "Do it, Do it, Do it!" He replies. "Ok, you got it" and begins to pund her furiously again. Moments later, he explodes for the second time inside my wife. the first part of the video ends there...

 The second part begins just after He left our hotel room. Both Lisa and I were wide awake from what had just happened. Lisa asked me to open the black-out shades to let in the morning light and Lisa and I lay on the bed. She allowed me to remove my chastity lock and the second part picks up as I began to masturbate laying next to her. She told me to put my finger in her pussy to feel what he had left for me. I could tell she was getting aroused again, and Lisa unexpectedly gets up and straddles my face. She positions her pussy at my mouth, I know what she wants...so I begin to lick her. At first I did not detect anything very different, but within a few moments, Lisa begins to moan and grind her pussy against my face and mouth. Her full breasts heave, her hips, thighs and belly begin to tense. Seconds later, She leans back and orgasms powerfully. We can see her shapely body shaking and gently convulsing as she straddles my face.


At that moment, a flood of her bulls sperm is released from its' place deep inside my wife. I gasp, my arms flail as I struggle beneath her, as his seed seeps from her. Unable to move, I eat the meal her bull has left and she has just fed me.







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Wednesday, March 18, 2015

Pre-date night anxiety

Lisa's BF contacted me earlier this week and wanted another date with her... tomorrow evening. He will be coming over around 8 or 9 PM Thursday night and although they've been together many times, I always feel an uncomfortable anxiety before the date. I suppose I should be used to it by now but I always feel a pit in my stomach before each date. I can't explain the reason for this and I struggle to understand it.

Lisa has been seeing men for over 20 years now.  There have been random spontaneous one-nighters, planned meetings with men who she expressed interest from online contact, as well casual acquaintances, some semi-regular partners and in most recent years, the young man she considers to be her 'boyfriend'. I guess I'm happy that she has someone she feels comfortable with and who she trusts, but the thought of my wife giving herself to him so freely can sometimes bring me to the point of feeling nauseous, especially in the hours before they meet.

With that comfort comes some mixed feelings for me. He is very good for her in many ways. He is young, athletic, enthusiastic about giving Lisa what she needs and has a very large black cock - which my wife seems to love. Really everything she could ever want. Their sexual compatibility and chemistry can't be denied, even by me, her husband. I try to imagine how he must feel. He knows he is able to satisfy my wife, he knows I know that she has wants him sexually and not me. He knows he is 20+ years younger than her and I and I wonder sometimes what a feeling of power and superiority that must be for him.

Although I accepted my place as a cuckold husband, it is a retched place to be at times like just before her dates arrive. Once they are together I still feel anxiety, but I get to a more peaceful place of acceptance of what's happening. After all once he is with her, there is nothing I can do to stop what is happening.  He will fuck my wife. Lisa will have orgasms with him. Then he will leave and we will go on with our normal lives until their desire for each other bring him back for more.

If you've followed this blog at all, you know that most of the men Lisa has been with do not cum inside her. That is the most humiliating thing another man can do to a cuckold like myself. Accepting the sperm of another man is the ultimate form of cuckoldry. There have been a few, who in the heat of the moment have done it, but most have pulled out. Her current lover has reached a significant place with regard to this. He has cum inside her several times over the past 2 years and most recently she actually asked him if he was going to do it - which of course he did. Accepting and actually wanting another man's sperm is a big step for Lisa. I accept that it is natural for him to want to do this as well. It is natural for a man to want to leave his seed inside a woman, but in this case, the woman is my wife and when he ejaculates inside her I am cuckolded to another level. Lisa is 53 years old and is going through change of life, nevertheless, I know His sperm will swim be inside my wife trying to find their mark for hours after he leaves.

Wish me luck, I will have a very sleepless and restless night especially after the text I exchanged with him earlier today.