After A very brief lull

There was a brief lull after the last encounter, during which I began to believe that my wife had gotten this out of her system. I was very wrong. She brought up the subject one evening after we went out to dinner with some freinds. She asked me if I thought anyone of our freinds wives did what she did...What would they think if they knew that she had sex with other men, and that I accepted it. It was a rhetorical question, she did not really expect an answer, and I certainly had none. But it made me realize how unusual our marriage had become, at least the sexual aspect of it. The rest of our married life was as normal as any other.

She then told me that she thought I had been wonderful at helping her find suitable partners, that I should devote more effort to this so that she could continue to enjoy this new found freedom. She told me it made her feel sexy and alive to get the sexual attention from other men. She told me it excited her to have me there watching her, she felt very much in control and safe at the same time. I agreed that it was working out well for her and i would post ads to find people she would like to meet.

After posting several ads, I began to get emails and contact requests on yahoo IM. Many were from husbands who wanted their wives to have sex with other men. They asked for advice, I would always respond that I had none...my wife is the one that wanted this, not me. I told them to be careful what they wished for. It seems there are alot of husbands in this catagory - wanna bees. Franlkly I do not understand this at all.

I realized that there is a very fundamental difference between a husband who encourages his wife to have sex with other men, and a husband whose wife has sex with other men on her own initiative. For Lisa, there were 2 things that motivated her to change the sexual nature of our marriage. First and foremost was her strong sex drive and her inability to have vaginal orgasms with a 'small' cock. To some women I guess size isn't important. For Lisa, it seems that only a big cock can give her the powerful orgasms that she likes. Secondly, meeting men reaffirmed her sexuality and her feeling desirable, which hightened her sexual desires and motivation to be with other men even further.


I placed some ads on swinger sites. I posted just a few and the response was overwhelming. So many men were interested in seeing what it was like to be a 'cuckold'. It also generated interest from hundreds of men who wanted to fuck my wife. I began screening them through chats and through photo exchanges. I knew what Lisa wanted, and I would not let her settle for men who were not to her liking. If I didn't choose wisely, that would disapoint her and whatever sexual value I had as her husband would be diminished by making bad choices.

I would show her the photos of men I thought might be suitable and she would choose who she was interested in meeting. Alot of black men were interested in her and when I showed her the photos, she invariably was chosing black men, or men with great physiques and large cocks. When I say large, she wanted the hugest ones. Always 8-12 inches were the preference. She told me she was always attracted to black men, the taboo nature of having sex with them. She told me that it would be exciting for her that I would be watching her, that I would watch a black man take her and please her sexually.

Things began to change rapidly. She went out one evening alone while I was out visiting with some freinds. I came home around 11 PM and she was still not home. She had gone to a bar in town and text me around 11:15 saying she had met someone, she would be home later. 30 mins later another text. She was leaving the bar - with him.
She said 'he's 26 and he wants me, I'm going to his place'.

She texted me again at 1:30 and said 'I will see you in the morning'

I lay in bed thinking what was most likely happening at that very moment. I admit that I masterbated while thinking of this. I knew he was fucking her and I could not stop it. I had no way to find her and even if I did nothing could stop it now, she had made up her mind.

She came home at 5am. Disheveled and worn out. I had not slept but was in bed waiting for her. She took off her clothes and lay next to me. I could smell his cologne on her. She asked if I was awake, I asked her where she had been, and she just said...'he fucked me'. I asked who 'he' was, where did she meet him, why didn't she just come home. She said his name is Nick, he's 26 and he took her to his house where he lived with 2 freinds. His freinds went to bed, and she went to his room and he fucked her for several hours.

She got on top of me and pulled my hand down between her legs, and said 'do you feel that?' Her pussy was slippery and soaked. She pushed rolled over, spread her legs and pulled me close, her hand went between her legs then came back up and she pushed her finger into my mouth, saying 'that's what we did'. Then she gently pushed my head down between her legs. She said 'I want you to lick me'. There was no question she had been with a man from the scent of cologne on her body. Now there was no question that he had fucked her, her pussy tasted salty, I new what it was, but could not beleive this was happening. She held my head, bucked her hips and said 'Eat it, do you taste it?'. As I licked her, she told me he came twice, she said she made a 26 year old cum, that it was the most exciting thing she ever felt, 'do you taste his cum?' I said nothing.

She pulled me up towards her and guided me inside her. her pussy was different, it was very loose, it was obviously filled with his cum, and as i pressed inside her she told me 'his cum is in there, you know'. I could take no more and within a few seconds I exploded inside her. She lay there for a few minutes, then She rolled over stradeled my face and said 'lick me again, make me cum'.

I knew she had not orgasmed with me, but I also knew that she knew I had cum while inside her-and here she was stradeling my face. She said 'I want you taste your cum', she spread her legs and began to rock back and forth. She was not taking no for an answer, and I was in no position to argue, she smiled, and her eyes rolled back in her head as i licked her pussy. A few minutes later she orgasmed, and as she did she kept saying 'eat it, eat it'. She seemed to be enjoying my discomfort in a way I can't really explain. I didn't know why she would want this, I had no idea really, but it excited her in a way I had never seen before. The next day she slept until 3PM and said nothing of the night before. She never saw that guy again as far as I know.

Lisa sees him again

A few months later, Lisa asked to see one of her friends she had been with twice before. I arranged for us to meet at the hotel bar nearby where we had met him before. He was the man she had been with in my "closer to home" posting earlier. I had chatted with him several times since our most recent meetings and He was quite anxious to get together with her again as well. We got to the bar and ordered drinks, he arrived soon after. Within 30 mins or so Lisa told me to get the room, so I went to the front desk and did as she asked. When I returned they were sitting close to each other and laughing, chatting and having a good time. The bar was crowded so we decided to leave. Lisa told me to get her bag from the car and they would proceed to the room. When I arrived they were on the bed, I turned on the camera and watched as they embraced. They were still dressed and a few minutes later, she called me over to the bed and told me to remove her clothes, I helped her out of her dress, then unclipped her bra. Her breasts spilled from the double D cups and he quickly moved into place and sucked on each of them as I sat on the bed. She motioned me to leave them alone, so I moved away and tuned on the camera. Of course she wanted his cock, and leaned over and blew him while looking at me the whole time. She slowly sucked his huge cock and looked at me smiling. Oddly I kept looking at her wedding ring on her finger and she stroked his cock with her hand and jerked him into her mouth. After several minutes he spread her legs and licked her pussy while I removed myself from the bed. He positioned his cock at the entrance to her pussy, then slowly and deliberately pushed himself inside my wife. He is about 9 inches long and very thick, but he was completely inside Lisa within 30 seconds.

He fucked my wife in many positions as he always did and she also sucked his cock in between many of them. Towards the end of the night, he had Lisa laying face down on the bed, and entered her from behind. As the pace of his strokes increased so deep the moans coming from my wife. At this point a thought came to me - he had pulled out the first time they were together, but he did not pull out the second time...

What would happen this time. As I sat there watching his excitement build I became very anxious. It's hard to describe the feeling of not knowing. He was in control, and he would decide. Will he pull out on his own? Will she ask him to pull out? I do not dare say anything because it will interrupt her pleasure, but I hope that he does pull out. It's one thing to see a guy fuck my wife - i have gotten used to that at this point. But when he inseminates my wife it's a very uncomfortable feeling. It's a different level, knowing his sperm is swimming inside her brings it to another level. The pace quickens, he groans, he drives deep and does not pull out. He has cum inside my wife Lisa. He stay in her for a few moments, then rolls off. She is still laying face down on the bed when He leans over and spreads her cheeks. He says nothing but instinctively I know what he's doing - he does it to show me the proof. They laugh and chat for a few minutes, then he kisses her goodbye and leaves.

When a man leaves our hotel room after fucking my wife, it is always very strange for me. I always wonder what I should say...'Thank you' doesn't seem appropriate. Lisa said it for me, and also told him she was sure we would see him again soon. After he left Lisa summoned me over to the bed where she still lay. She told me to take my clothes off and lay with her. I could smell his scent on her as I lay next to her. She brought my hand between her legs, she bucked her hips gently and said 'He came'. That's all she said. I could feel the liquid between her lips. Her hands pulled me towards her, and she told me to suck on her tits. Her hands went to my head, she gently but deliberately pressed my head down further.

She spread her legs and said 'lick my pussy'. I told her I would get a towel, my intention being to wipe things up before licking her. She said, 'No, I want you to lick it' and pressured my head between her legs. I understood this later as a more extreme form of cuckolding. She tasted slightly salty but I was not disgusted as I had expected I might be. I licked her clit mostly, and as she got more excited, she would grind her hips towards my mouth, harder and harder, telling me to put my tongue inside her to make her cum, she was close I could tell.

A moment later she orgasmed, which is a great accomplishment for me, as she rarely has orgasmed with me any more. As she gasped, her held my head and at that moment gravity and her excitement began to have an effect on the cum he had deposited so deeply inside her. She held my head and said, 'EAT IT!, EAT IT!, EAT HIS CUM' After feeling happy to have brought her to orgasm, now I felt humiliated and used as His seed flowed like a lazy river from Lisa's orgasmic contractions. She implored me not to stop, so I continued as she asked. Deep down I guess I knew that she wanted this, for me to eat the sperm he had filled her with. When she caught her breath she continued to hold my head between her thighs, then started to talk to me about what she had just done. She said 'Did you eat it? You ate his cum...He fucked your wife and then you ate his cum, how do you feel? That makes me so hot, how did you like that?' She pulled me up towards her and kissed me deeply. She said she loved me, and grabbed my dick and stroked it gently. She said 'I want you to fuck me now', she spread her legs and pulled me towards her. As I entered her, there was no resistance. She said 'He stretched me didn't he? He fucked me but I still love you, he has a BIG cock, do you feel what he did to me?'. I could feel that she was different now, the result of several hours of intense sex with a man who was double my size in both length and width. Her pussy was so wet, so wide open and slippery smooth and at that moment she said... 'you know his sperm is still swimming inside me? You know that don't you? Don't you?' A moment later I came. There are no words to describe this event, except to say that I realized that Lisa was getting off on this, she was truly intending on cuckolding and that was a big part of what excited her about being with other men. It wasn't just that she needed a man with a bigger cock to orgasm, she also loved to be in control sexually, to control me sexually and for the men she was with to also be in control. There was no other explanation.

You can see some of what I saw that night in the clip below, full video of all of Lisa's experiences with other men can be seen at diary-of-a-real-hotwife

Another vacation, this time 2 men fuck my wife

It was time for our annual vacation. Lisa arranged for care for the kids while we were away and we were looking forward to a relaxing week in the Caribbean. Three weeks before leaving Lisa told me she wanted to really relax and asked if we could do something 'fun'?' I knew what she meant. I told her it might be nice for us to just reconnect ourselves and just have a normal vacation like we used to. She insisted and asked to me to see if there were anyone we could meet, would I be able to find someone for just one fun night. I said finally relented and told her 'I'll see what I can do...'. I placed an add on a site that caters to such activities. Over the next week I began getting messages on yhoo IM from a man from the island we were going to. He said he was interested in meeting Lisa and I for a drink and lived about an hours drive from where we were staying. We exchanged a few photos. He loved Lisa's look, and seemed like a nice clean cut guy who Lisa would get along with. I showed Lisa his face photo and she told me 'He looks nice, let's meet him'. 'Mark' gave us his phone number and said to call when we had a free night. We arrived at the hotel and had a few relaxing days at the resort. Lisa spent some time shopping, and came back with a few bathing suites and short black mesh dress. She looked great in it but it was not what she ordinarily chose. It was very short, with a low cut neckline and was mesh which was slightly see through. With 4 nights left, Lisa told me this was for our 'special night'. The next morning over breakfast Lisa asked if I had called Mark yet. She said we should get together with him because we'd be heading home in a few days. I called him and we arranged to meet him. He would come to our hotel in the afternoon to meet and since we had planned on going diving that afternoon, he would join us. When he arrived, Lisa hit it off very well with him. He was about 26, and Lisa liked him right away. We soon left for the dive. Once on the dive boat I became alittle seasick so Lisa buddies up with Mark for her dives. As the boat returned to the dock, Lisa invited him to meet us for drinks after dinner. he eagerly agreed and we arranged to meet around 8PM in our hotel bar. We were running late that evening, so while Lisa finished getting ready, she sent me to the bar to meet Mark. I sat there for 30 minutes nervously waiting. Soon he tapped me on the shoulder, shook my hand and introduced me to his Friend. He had brought one of his buddies. He said his Friend needed a ride over to our area and he had given him a ride. Deep down I think I knew what they both wanted. I called Lisa and told her that Mark had arrived and we were waiting in the bar for her. She arrived a few minutes later, gave Mark a big kiss and then he introduced his Friend. She was surprised by this, but went with it and we all talked for about an hour over drinks. We all had a few drinks at the bar and then she told me she wanted to get a bottle of wine and go back to the room. She invited Marks Friend to join us. Lisa went to the room with both of them and I went to get a bottle of wine at a local store. When I got to the room I opened the wine for us all. The guys seemed uncomfortable so Lisa asked me if I would mind staying out on the balcony for a while. She whispered to me that I could turn on the camera but just leave it on the table, then she opened the door and got down to business. She went to the other room and put on a see thru nightie and sat on the bed with Mark, he started by giving her a back massage. They undressed each other as I watched from the balcony. Lisa sucked his big cock and looked over at me, smiling at me with his cock in her mouth. He got her up on her knees and fingered my wife from behind as she blew him. I could see him put 3 fingers into her wet pussy before turning her over and sliding his cock inside her. His Friend just sat and sipped his wine patiently and watched while my wife got it going with Mark. I had been asked to leave the room but his buddy saw the camera and picked it up and videoed Lisa sucking and getting fucked by his buddy. He soon put the camera down and joined them on the bed. I began to masturbate on the balcony as Mark fucked her from behind and his Friend walked to the edge of the bed, my wife taking his cock into her mouth and started to suck blow him. They did this for 10 minutes or so, then switched positions. These two men were fucking my wife, as I sat on the balcony masturbating. I had a hard time understanding how quickly this all unfolded, this was unbelievable to me, but was happening and I could not or would not be able to stop it now They then took turns fucking my wife as if she was some slut. I watched from the balcony as Mark fucked her from behind, his Friend video taping as he pulled out and came all over Lisa's ass and back. He spread his cum on my wife's ass and back and then his Friend took his turn. Lisa soon brought his Friend to orgasm with her mouth, taking his load on her face and tits. They left around 3AM and Lisa let me in to say goodbye to them. They were laughing as they left, telling me that next time I should send her on vacation alone. Lisa laughed and agreed. She was exhausted and sticky with their cum. I could see it on her face and neck. As I lay next to her in the bed, the scent of their cum was unmistakable and kept me awake most of the rest of the night. She told me the next day that she had never been so excited as she was last night. She thanked me for not interfering and staying on the balcony. She said it was comforting knowing I was close by, but liberating knowing that I was not a part of it. She said she felt badly for me, and that she also felt 'like a whore and a bit slutty'. I knew she was not a whore, she would never have sex with someone for money. But she had reached a new level of slutty-ness. But she said did not regret it at all, because it was an 'amazing experience'. On the plane ride home, I can't help but feel we have reached yet another level.

As of this point in 2003, my wife had been fucked by 11 different men during our 15 year marriage - all within the past 3 years or so. Our life together was otherwise very normal and happy. She seemed content with the arrangement and suprisingly, I began to feel more comfortable with what she was doing - even though I didn’t fully understand it. I felt good that she was not a cheater and never lied about what she was doing. In fact, she seemed to enjoy the fact that I knew she was enjoying other men. The fact that she was truthful was good, but I often wondered why she seemed to relish in telling me about the men who she gave herself to and how she seemed to enjoy it so much. After her last encounter she confided that she found it exciting knowing that this man wanted her and that they both got off on calling me and telling me what they were doing.

I sometimes would get the sense that she was in a way saying: these men are enjoying me and pleasing me more than I ever would or could. Having other men want her seemed to affirm her sexuality, she seemed to get a sense of power and sensuality from it. This seemed to excite her and incite her to take things further, And further it would go…

I began to do some research about this sort of thing. What was it that would motivate an otherwise normal, healthy happily married woman, the mother of our 3 children to behave this way? Had I done something to cause this? It was during my research that I first read in detail about the word 'CUCKOLD'. I had heard the term but not fully understood its' meaning. I found that what she was doing had all the signposts of cuckolding. A wife who is sexually promiscuous with the knowledge of her husband. It seemed to matter little if the husband accepted his wife’s infidelity, but it was clear that in the truest sense of the word, it was the wife who was the one to initiate cuckolding. Lisa came into my office one evening while doing this reading, and we had a very frank discussion about what had been going on for the past few years. While she had never known the meaning of the word CUCKOLD, as she read some of the published articles, it was clear to us both that this was now part of our married life.

Lisa was fascinated with the subject and over the next few months I would often find her reading stories and sometimes watching videos on the internet. She never hid it from me, and in fact seemed to enjoy sharing what she was seeing and learning. Many times the videos she watched involved interracial scenes, and while I didn’t think much of it at the time, in retrospect this was a big part of inner desires.
She would sometimes send me links to stories that she found arousing or interesting to her, most of them had cuckold themes or undercurrents. A few examples that stick in my mind are: The wife taking a lover, while the husband waited anxiously at home then returning and denying him, a middle aged wife having sex a young black man who was working at their home, a wife stumbling upon a bachelor party in Vegas and then becoming the entertainment for 10-15 young men.

Cuckolding is all about control, my wife controling her sexuality, and mine as it turns out. Years later I would find out what this was all about and why she was so fascinated by it.

The phone call home

Lisa went to another business function a few month later. It was a 2 day conference and was held at a hotel several hours away. Lisa and all the participants would arrive in the morning, have meetings all day, followed by dinner and drinks. Everyone would be staying over at the conference hotel.

Lisa called me after the day of meetings and said she was getting showered and dressed for dinner. She said the meetings were good and that she had a drink with a few of the guys from a different region before going back to the room . She told me one of them, (Mike) kept telling her he couldn't believe she was 44 years old and had 2 kids. He was 34. This was my clue that something might be brewing. There is always a clue with her.

She called again after dinner, she said she was at the bar with Mike. It was 11PM, he had bought her drinks and Lisa was tipsy again. She told me she was having a good time and she would call me when she got back to her room. An hour later she called again. She said she was in her room, but Mike had invited her to his room for a nightcap and she was going there next. She would call me later 'if she could' .

She called 30 minutes later. She was in his room, I knew what was about to happen so I went to my PC and turned on the recorder so I could capture what she said. She told me she was on the bed with Mike, I could hear him in the background, sucking sounds filtered over the phone line. I asked her what he was doing, she said he was taking off her clothes.

She handed him the phone, he told me I had a very sexy wife, he said 'do you know she's going to be his naughty slut tonight? ' he said she is a naughty girl, that he has really nice tits, he asked when the last time she had another guy was, he told me he was taking off her panties and her pussy was nice and shaved. Lisa was moaning in the background the whole time he is talking to me. I knew that it was not shaved when she left that morning, so she must have anticipated this.

He told me they both wanted each other. She told me he was licking her clit, she was breathless at times during the call. I heard her say something about fingers, 'more fingers' and I thought he must have his fingers inside her. He was licking her pussy and she directed him to her clit. She asked me if I was jacking off right now and if I had cum yet? She starts telling him she wants him to cum all over her chest...I heard the phone drop, the line went dead, then I heard her moan deeply and then she said very clearly, 'Fuck me'.

I called back many times over the next hour but there the call went directly to voicemail. it was no use, I knew he was fucking fucking my wife. I did not sleep much that night.

The next morning she called me before hearding to the 2nd day of meetings. She appologized for missing my calls but she s
aid her battery went dead. I asked her what happened, and she just said 'Your ears must have been ringing all night, he fucked me so good!!'.

The audio is posted here, you can hear for yourself, just what that night was like for me to hear another man as he is about to fuck my wife.

The business function

A few weeks later Lisa went to a business function. After the business meeting and diner, some of her coworkers went to a bar where some former colleagues of hers were planning on meeting. One young man was always a favorite of hers, and in fact I had met him several times and we all got along well. He was 27 years old and single.

The night is a bit of a blur to me but she invited him to our house after they were done at the bar. She surprised me when she walked in the door with him, his hand around her waste, and said 'Look who I found!'.

She had me make them some drinks, even though it was 1AM on a weeknight. We had a good buzz on and Lisa insisted that he not drive home. Lisa told him to come upstairs and she would find him a place to sleep. Our guest room was in disarray because of some remodeling we were doing and knew where this was going...

They went directly into our bedroom and from the kitchen I soon heard her moaning and the bed shaking above me. A few minutes later she called my name and asked me to come upstairs. They were on the bed, her blouse and bra were open, her skirt was up around her waist when I came to the door. His pants were unzipped and his belt was unbuckled She said 'there's nowhere for him to sleep so he's sleeping here', then asked me to bring their drinks up.

When I returned with the drinks she was on her knees on the bed, sucking his cock. She looked up at me and took the drink, took a sip and said thank you, then went right back to sucking him. The guy just looked at me in disbelief, through his hands up as if to say, 'What do you expect me to do?' then his eyes rolled back in his head as my wife continued to suck him.

I turned to leave the room and she stopped me, asked me to sit on the bed next to her. Then She said 'I want you to watch'.

I sat there as she continued to blow him. Soon the rest of their clothes were off and he was fucking her. He continued to fuck her for about 20 minutes i guess and then when it looked like he was ready to cum he slowed down, he turned to me and said 'why don't you fuck her too'...

Lisa said, 'no, don't stop' and she pulled him deeper inside her. A few moments later, groaned loudly, he pulled out of her pussy, rose up and came in my wife's' mouth.

At this point it was late and we all soon fell asleep, Lisa in the middle. He had shot his cum in her mouth and before falling asleep, she kissed me goodnight. This was not just a peck, it was a deep kiss, and she punctuated it by looking me in they eyes, then she smiled and said, 'Taste good...?

The next morning he left very early and Lisa spent the day recovering and relaxing. Although we never discussed it again, we have socialized with him and his (new) wife a few times over the years.

The business aquaintance - He fucks her in my bed

March 2001

A few months passed and Lisa had taken a new position at work. It was a great opportunity and would involve a partnership with a company from the west coast. One of the west coast reps was in town for a conference and Lisa spent a few days working with him. She told me about him after dinner one evening, he was a 28 year old single guy, she said he was very attractive and funny. She told me that the next night they would all be going out to dinner and he would be hading back home the next afternoon.

The next day Lisa looked stunning when she left for work, she wore an above the knee skirt and a fitting blouse with a jacket. She emailed me in the afternoon, reminding me she was going out after work, and told me 'He' would be driving her to the resteraunt and they were going out for drinks after dinner, and 'don't wait up for me'.

Around 11 PM she called from the bar. Everyone else had left, it was just Lisa and him. She had left her car at the office, and she sounded a bit drunk so I told her I would come and get her rather than risk driving home. I heard her talking with him for a few moments and she told me she would call me back in 20 mins. 40 mins passed and she finally called, she was in his car, he was driving her home. She said he would be staying over and please make sure the guest room was ready.

They arrived 20 mins later, Lisa was tipsy, and very playfull. She introduced us and he seemed very nice. Lisa took him to the living room and sat near him on the sofa, she was clearly into him and I had a feeling what was to come of this.

I went to the bedroom and turned on the video camera in anticipation of what was next. Sure enough, when I returned, they were kissing on the sofa, his hand was up Lisa skirt and she was rubbing the substantial bulge in his pants.

Lisa looked up at me and said 'Did you take care of the guest room for me?'.
I said that I had. And with that, she stood up, walked over to me, gave me a kiss and said good night. She then led him by the hand towards the staircase leading up to our bedroom. As they passed me he extended his hand and said 'Thanks, I'll take good care of her, you have a good nite'. They went to our bedroom and closed the door.





I waited and listened for signs of what was happening until i could no longer take it. I went up to the bedroom door and tried to listen, I could hear them talking quietly and laughing, a few moans as well. I reached for the doorknob, it was locked. Finally I knocked and lisa came and opened the door and told me to come in.

She was wearing a see thru nighty, he was laying on the bed - on my side, his belt buckle open.
I sat at the edge of the bed for a moment, Lisa leaned over and kissed him and reached for his crotch.
Lisa looked over at me and said she was having fun, "why don't you go get some sleep in the guest room". She leaned over and helped him take his shirt off as I made my way out of the bedroom.
I knew my prescence was no longer welcome and that she wanted to be alone with him.
For the next 2 hours I heard nothing but moans and screams of exctacy coming from our bedroom. The rythmic sound of the headboard banging against the wall. I spent the night restlessly listening to this guy fucking my wife in my bed. Finally things quieted down around 3AM and I fell asleep, still wondering what had happened.



I woke up a few hours later, the house was quiet. I went to the bedroom door and heard nothing, then went to the kitchen to make coffee. A few minutes later I heard Lisa moaning again. The headboard began to quietly bang again, that sound is unmistakable. In rythm with his thrusts, I knew each sound meant his cock was driving into my wife.

Lisa emerged from the bedroom a few minutes later and made her way to the kitchen. She wore his unbuttoned shirt and nothing else. Through the opening in the shirt I saw his dried sperm on her tits and belly. She said she was worn out, that he was great and she was sorry he had to go back home that night. She thanked me for leaving them alone, she told me he wanted her alone and was not comfortable with me in the room.

She went to shower and they soon both got in his car and went to the office. Lisa exchanged phone #s and emails with him for a few months but they never saw each other again.





I watched the video later and saw much of what happened that night. The light was low but it was very clear that Lisa wanted to be fucked and she got what she wanted.
To this day she thinks he was one of her best lovers and since this was the first to fuck her alone in our bed, he has left an indelible impression on me as well.

The swing club

At this point (around mid 2002), I began to wonder what was going on...was my wife just a slut? I traveled alot for business and I wondered if she had cheated on me over the years, maybe this was not something that had just developed, and in fact had been going on for our whole marriage. So I decided to ask Lisa directly. Her answer was unequivocal, she was not a slut, she was not a cheat, and she valued our marriage and relationship more than ever. She was very sincere and honest and I have no reason to doubt her.

Around this time, Lisa began getting interested in exploring the internet, she found a few sites for swing clubs and an erotic show and mentioned them to me. We went to this Erotic Show in NYC, which was like a big conference for people in the porn biz. It was kind of interesting and fun but since we weren't in the porn biz it really wasn't for us. Lisa suggested we leave the show around 10PM and check out the swing club, which was not very far away.

The club was a multi-level bar, nothing really obvious going on in the bar but Lisa started chatting with one guy at the bar, who told her that people play on the upper level. Lisa suggested we go to the upper level, where we found about 20 couples, in various stages of undress, either making out or having sex. We found a quiet corner and just kind of observed things for a while. Within a few minutes a couple moved close to us and started talking with Lisa. We all kind of hit it off and within an hour or so we invited them to join us for a drink at our hotel.

After a few drinks at the hotel bar, Lisa suggested we bring it up to our room. Once we arrived it was clear the guy wanted Lisa and visa versa. They began kissing on the bed and within minutes he was inside her. His wife and I were laying on the bed, just watching him fuck Lisa so furiously, as if we were not even there. Although I tried, it was obvious that his wife was not interested in having sex or playing at all with me. After some time, Lisa and the womans' husband both climaxed, he spilled his cum all over her ass while fucking her doggy style.

We all fell asleep, all on the same bed, he next to Lisa. The next morning I woke to the sounds of sex, Lisa was laying on her side, John was on his side behind her, he held her leg up with one hand and I could see him stroking his cock against Lisa's pussy lips with the other. She was facing me and I could see the pleasure he was giving her in her face. She looked at me, kissed me and then whispered, 'He's going to fuck me again, ok?'.

His cock was not huge, but the head was enornous. Her legs spread wider, he gave a loud groan and pushed his cock inside her again. A few minutes later Lisa got on her knees and elbows and he fucked her from behind again, exploding all over her ass and back. They left a little while later, we echanged phone # and said we would stay in touch, but never did.

Later Lisa told me she had a good time but had hoped the woman would want to play with me, she said she felt guilty for enjoying herself while I had no such luck, but she said she was horny and a bit tipsy and she had a one track mind at the time.
She said she liked the feeling of a big head inside her, she told me it made her cum because when he was inside her from behind, she could feel it hitting a spot inside her that made her cum so hard.

So another man fucked my wife on this night. And there would be more men over the next few months... I will post those stories very soon. Doubts crept back into my spinning head...The frequency of her trysts was seeming to increase, I once again began to wonder...

Is my wife just a slut? Is she a nymphomaniac? Or is this normal and something I should continue to accept...?

the story continues...

A few months went by with no real mention of what had happened nor any mention of it happening again. I pretty much was starting to think she had gotten it out of her system, whatever it was that she felt she needed to do, but I was wrong abou that. We occassionally had sex and it was all good, or seemed to be at least. One night while out to dinner, Lisa asked if I had heard from the young man she met in our earlier post:

http://diaryofarealhotwife.blogspot.com/2011/05/close-to-home-part-2-no-turning-back.html

I had been chatting with him over the months and he was very interested in getting together again with my wife. She told me to arrange another date as soon as possible which I did, for a saturday night 3 weeks away. Sex between us came to a halt at this point, although I didn't notice for a week or two. I soon came to understand that this denial of sex was intentional and it is how she would prepare me and herself for her date.


We were to meet at the same hotel bar for drinks and then I would get the room and ... As the date night approached Lisa went to get her hair and nails done, she wanted to look her best for him of course. Lisa showered and was about to get dressed and then told me meet her in the bedroom. She layed on a towel and told me to get my razor...

she wanted me to shave her pussy for him tonight. I did as she asked, as I was doing it she was moaning and saying things like, 'he will be in me in a few hours, he's going to fuck me like he did last time'. she made me make sure it was completely shaven before rinsing off in the shower again.

A few hours later we were off to the hotel bar. We met, had a few drinks and I could tell they were anxious to get to the room. Lisa asked me to go check in at the frint desk. Hard to describe the feeling of standing at the front desk and paying for a room that another man is going to fuck my wife in. I returned to the bar and she asked me for the keys, she asked if I would settle the bar tab then meet them in the lobby.

As the 3 of us walked through the lobby, I saw the man who checked me in, and for some reason I couldn't help feeling like he knew what was going on, although there was no way he could have.

When we got to the room Lisa asked me to get her bag from the car, then come back up to the room. In the bag was a bottle of wine, a change of clothes and our video camera. When I returned I realized I did not bring the key to the room, so as I was about to knock, I hear muffled moaning through the door. I am paralized, not knowing if I should knock or wait till I hear them talking. I am wondering what is going on in there, was he already fucking my wife? I was only gone 5-10 mins...Was she sucking his cock?

Finally I knocked, I heard her say 'Just a minute...' then some laughter...then the door opened. To my surprise they were both still dress, he was on the bed, Lisa's clothes looked alittle out of place...

They embraced on the bed as I opened and poured the wine, within minutes he was undressing Lisa. She called me over and told me to release her bra for her, her full breasts spilled out as I removed each from its holder. He reached over and fondeled each one, cupping them in his hand, her nipples quickly rising with excitment.

Lisa helped him out of his pants, and he layed her back on the bed, her blouse was in the way and she carelessly tossed it over to me, landing on my head. Althoug it made me feel somewhat rediculous, we all laughed and it kind of broke the heavy silence in the room. She soon layed back, spread her thighs for him, he slowly raised her hips up and removed her thong shaking his head in wonder at the site of my wifes perfectly hairly pussy. He quickly began lapping at my wifes' freshly shaven pussy and after a few minutes of moaning, lisa pulled him towards her. They kissed deeply and she reached down between his legs and positioned his thick heavy cock at her love hole. With one slow and deliberate thrust he was inside my wife, balls deep. It was that quick...in all of 4 or 5 minutes and his cock was in her, just as she had wanted it.

He fucked her for a long time, I was just sitting and watching as they changed positions and Lisa came time after time. I don't know what goes on in Lisa's head at moments like this...the moment where the head of her playmate's swollen cock is poised near the opening of her beautiful pussy...her pussy hovering over his hard cock. I would love to know what she thinks in that moment as she is about slide down on top of him. For me, seeing her pussy being entered and then stretched by another mans cock is such a mixture of feelings, fear, excitement as well as regret.

I think she realizes this too. Sometimes she will pause, right when she is about to slide down on her playmates stiff cock, and slowly, deliberately ease all the way down, her pussy engulfing his cock with warmth and pleasure. She does this, because she knows I am watching her fuck. I get excitement from watching her curvy ass slide and bounce up and down on another mans cock. I love watching her being an object of sexual desire. I love watching the looks of pleasure that wash across her face as she nears climax with another man.

He fucked her for several hours this night, they paced themselves and took breaks when things heated up beyound what either of them ccould take. She sucked his long fat cock with great skill and talent to get him hard after each break. Towards the end of the night, he was fucking her while she lay flat on her stomach, his legs stradeling her thighs. He pumped her furiously in this position, I could tell he was about to unload. This is a very exciting yet scary moment for a husband to witness. He is inside her without a condom, he could decide to pull out and cover her with his seed. He could also just blow it all inside her. There is nothing I can do to stop what was about to happen. I knew my wife knew he was about to cum, but she said nothing.


She was about to orgasm too and I knew she would not interupt that. He did not pull out. He gave a heavy groan, thrust deeply and then he spasmed as he filled my wife with his sperm.

Hard to describe the feelings I had at that moment. Lisa knew this guy well and felt comfortable with him. When he pulled out, she was exhausted and satisfied and very happy, saying 'that was soooo great!'. As she lay face down on the bed, her friend reached over and grabbed her ass, gently spreading her cheeks, revealing her now loose lips. Lisa's pussy was still contracting, slowly opening and closing, I was still in shock having witnessed this, I was somehow still video taping and I remember wondering if I was going to see his cum leak from her as I had seen countless times in porn movies. It did not leak really out, I could see it, it was in there, but he had made his deposit very deeply.

He would become a frequent partner of Lisa's and they have played and met several times since then.

When we returned home, I began thinking about what had happened and how things had changed so rapidly over the past year or 2. I never imagined the woman I had married a few years earlier would transform in such a profound way. Lisa was never promiscuous in her teens or 20's and it seemed very out of character to me. In considering this, I had to ask myself why this was happening. It seemed like I was on a train that had suddenly jumped the tracks and was headed in a totally different direction.

Our home life was still happy, we had a young child, a comfortable lifestyle and a great family. Yet, sexually, Lisa seemed restless and very adventurous. I began to think...this really isn't that bad, we are still happy, she just likes the excitement of this and I figured I wasn't really providing that for her. She didn't want to have affairs, or relationships with the men she had been with. She simply wanted sex. And it wasn't like she was doing it every day, or every week even. It was only when she got restless and I guess a bit horny.
I also recognized that all of these trists had a common link which was alcohol. Lisa seemed to loose her inhibitions with a few drinks, which I guess also seemed normal.

Somewhere during this timeframe I began to just accept that this was going to happen from time to time, and that it wasn't all that bad. Although the vision of these other men using my wife as if she was a slut was a bit hard to swallow, it was also exciting to see her in such a state of extacy.

These thoughts began to creep into my head more and more frequently and I would sometimes what the video to try to find clues as to what really turned Lisa on about these trysts. While on the one hand seeing the replay of other men fucking my wife was like awefull for me, it was also exciting. I remember watching the videos and thinking... if she just said no when he put his hands on her thigh, if she just didn't kiss him back or hadn't spread her legs as he ran his hands up her dress... this might turn out differently. But each time I saw how willing and wanting she was, seemingly needing what this other man was about to give her.

So this was clearly the beginning of a journey for us as a couple. We didn't know how long it would last or how to really deal with it but we were going to stay together as a happily married couple and see where this would lead. Day to day life was as normal as any, but there was a secret side of Lisa that no one else knew of other than her and I, and the men who had fucked her.

I found myself thinking about the guys she had been with and what they must be thinking. 3 of them had fucked her right in front of me, with no consideration, regret or guilt about it whatsoever. They must think I'm such a jerk to just sit by and let them fuck my wife and use her. Another (a family friend) had fucked her while i was away on a business trip and we would see him around town often. He knew he fucked Lisa of course, but he didn't realize Lisa had told me what they had done. Another fucked her while she was on a business trip. They all knew she was married, and they fucked her anyway.

Lisa and I didn't talk too much about it at this time, this was a very compartmentalized thing for us at this point. It struck me how normal we must seem to others in day to day life. It hit me one day while we were at a local amusement park with our kid. There she was, a 30 something mom, holding her 4 year olds hand waiting to go on the tea cup ride.

Yet we had a secret that no one could know. No one would ever suspect that the woman standing next to them had this promiscuous side, she had been fucked by 5 differnt men. Lisa had sexual needs and desires that I was not satisfying. I was beginning to accept that this small portion of our lives was something we were going to be dealing with for awhile.

The vacation

We planned our vacation months in advance and were very much looking forward to a relaxing 10 day getaway to a warm island in the Caribbean where we could unwind a bit. We flew first class, were staying in a very exclusive hotel, and were having a great time enjoying the weather, beach and bars and great restaurants. During our stay we would usually spend the day at the beach, pool or visiting local points of interest, then go out to dinner. After dinner we would then go to one of the bars or clubs to relax and enjoy the music or dancing. Each time we went to a bar or club I would get this feeling that Lisa was wandering away. She would offer to get us drinks then when she didn't return for 30 mins or more sometimes, I'd go looking for her and find her chatting at the bar with some guy or group of guys. It was all very innocent it seemed, but nevertheless in the back of my mind I guess I wondered how innocent it really was... On the final night of our stay, we planned to go to the best restaurant on the island for dinner and then to a club that had been highly recommended. After dinner we arrived at the club, the place was jumping with people, mostly a mixed crowd of younger 20-30 year olds. We walked around a bit and Lisa said she needed to use the ladies room, there was a line so I waited with her a while. Then I told her I would go to the mens room and then meet her near the bar in a few minutes. 20 mins later I still could not locate her. The bar was multi-level and I walked around for a while until I finally found her, standing at the back bar - talking with a guy. She introduced me to her new friend, Max, he was a young looking, maybe late 20's, stocky build black man. He was a local islander, knew all the best places to party and seemed very friendly. Lisa finished her drink and he quickly fetched another for her, actually bought a round for us all. While he was getting the drinks, Lisa whispered in my ear, "He's really nice, I like him, what do you think?". Trying to evade the point I knew she was trying to make, I said, "yeah, he seems nice, most people here on this island are nice". When he returned, Lisa and he talked and laughed, and finally she leaned over and said Max knows of a club a few miles away that is really good that he wanted to take us to. I was not sure I wanted to leave the place we were at, but I agreed and we got in his car and he drove the short drive to the club. When we arrived, the people at the door knew Max, he was a regular and well known I guess. We entered the club, Max's Friends greeted him and he introduced us to maybe 15 different people within the first few minutes. They were all locals, all mid 20's and all black. The 3 of us sat down at a table, Max ordered more drinks for us all and then excused himself to got to the men's room. Lisa leaned over the table and said 'Did you notice we are the only white people in this place?'. I told her i noticed, and I'd bet most of the other people here noticed too. Max returned, he asked Lisa if she wanted to dance, she said 'let's go!' and left for the dance floor. I could see her from the table, it was just dancing but also noticed Mac had his hands all over her at times. I could see his friends on the dance floor giving him high fives and laughing. Lisa was enjoying the attention and was really getting into dancing, she danced with a few of his friends then went back to Mac. They came back to the table, and when we couldn't find the waitress for another round, they went to the bar together to get them. As I was sitting there waiting, I thought to myself I know what this is leading up to, the writing is on the wall. Lisa was already Little drunk, it would not take much to get her juices flowing - and it looked to me like they were already at full flood stage. When they came back, we talked and finished our drinks. It was probably 1 AM, I leaned over and asked if she was ready to leave soon. She leaned over to Mac, they talked, then she leaned back to me and said "Yes, we're all set" As we walked out of the club, I expected to grab a taxi but Mac insisted that he would give us a lift to our hotel which was just a few miles down the road. Lisa jumped in the front with him and I sat in the back. As we drove I saw Mac's hand reach over to Lisa's thigh, his hand reaching between them and Lisa putting her hand over his arm. She leaned back and I saw her ever so slightly spread her thighs. She was wearing a short dress and could see his hand was reaching upwards. The car was eerily quiet except for the sounds of the road and the radio playing low in the background. We arrived at the hotel a few minutes later. I said goodbye and thank you to Mac and then opened the door and got out. When Lisa did not open her door, I looked in and saw him leaning over and kissing him. One hand was between her legs, the other behind her head. A guy we had seen at our hotel earlier that day walked by at this point, he said hi to me, then he glanced in the car and saw what was going on there, he just looked back at me and then quickly looked away. I felt really uncomfortable at this point, not knowing what to do, standing outside the car watching my wife make out with this black guy. Lisa got out of the car, and then the driver side door opened. She walked over to me and said 'Mac's going to come up to our room for a night-cap. You don't mind do you hunny?'. Mac was standing there looking at me and all I could say was 'sure that's fine' When we got to the room, Lisa told me to open a bottle of wine for them. As I opened the bottle and poured the 3 glasses they went out on the balcony. He put his hands on Lisa's waist and pulled her close. She turned to him and soon they were embracing, kissing passionately. His hands ran up her back, then lifted her dress and grabbed her ass. I could hear her moan and he ran his hands up and down her curvy body. I hear her laugh then she calls me and says 'Where's our wine honey?'. I brought the glasses of wine out to the balcony, pretending not to have seen what I just saw. As we sip the wine Mac says 'you have a fine woman here, you're a lucky man, she's a real spitfire'. Lisa suggested we go inside and she sat on the couch, Mac sitting next to her, I sat on the chair nearby. Then they started to make out right there in front of me. Lisa's back was to me and I saw him reach behind her and try to find the zipper on her dress. The zipper was stuck, I hear Lisa say to him 'he will do it', 'Honey can you get my zipper?' I leaned over and unzipped her dress, the zipper went to just below the waist and once it was down I knew there was no stopping what was going to happen. He quickly pulled her dress from her shoulders to her waist. She turned her back to me showing her bra strap and said 'Please...'. I unhooked her bra, her big breasts fell from them like melons. He started sucking them as she leaned back on the couch moaning. After a few minutes, Lisa stood up, let her dress fall to the floor and told me to turn out the light. She asked for more wine, I told her she had already had too much but she insisted. As i poured the wine for her, She whispered to me 'he's going to fuck me, you know that don't you', then she headed over to the the bed. Mac said 'you have an incredible wife, I'm going to really enjoy fucking her'. He said 'I bet she has a really tight white pussy, doesn't she?' I said 'I guess you'll be finding out pretty soon'. He said 'I know I will, but when I'm done it won't be tight any more'. She layed back on the bed, I handed her her wine. Lisa said, 'what about Mac?, Pour a glass for him too!. And you better pour one for yourself...you're going to need it' They had a good laugh at that one. She layed back on the bed and Mac laid next to her. She pulled him close, they kissed, his hands running up and down her body. She reached for my hand and held it as he sucked on her breasts. In a flash He removed her panties, a skimpy thong really and started fingering her pussy. He went down on her, licking her pussy as she moaned and bucked her hips. She spread her thighs to give him full access. He raised up, kissed her on the lips and pulled down his shorts. His cock was hard as a rock, it was the first time I ever saw a black cock, I remember it was very thick but not huge, but compared to me he was easily a third bigger in size. He positioned himself between her legs, she grabbed his cock, and told me to bring her pocketbook over. I was confused until she reached in and pulled out a condom. I had no idea she had purchased them. She stroked his cock and expertly slid the condom on him, then pointed the head at the lips of her pussy and he began his long slow and very deliberate thrust into my wife. I remember seeing her small white hand wrapped around his black shaft and how she pointed it right at her love hole. Lisa moaned softly as he plowed deeper and deeper inside her. " I found I became excited thinking, this is a complete stranger, a young black man she had met only hours before, and using my wife like she was a slut. I had brought our video camera to capture some of the great scenery of the island but now I wanted to capture this excitement. I turned on the camera and placed it on the credenza. He was fucking her furiously now, and I could hear them groan and their flesh slapping together with each thrust. They went at it for about a half hour, then took a break. Lisa went to the ladies room to freshen up and Mac turned to me and said 'Your wife loves my black cock, you're not going to be able to keep her from it' It was now around 3 AM, but Lisa wanted more. She lay on the bed and she started sucking his cock to get him hard again. He still had the condom on so he reached down, pulled it off and told her to suck it. Lisa got him semi hard and wanted him inside her again. She looked over at me and said 'you enjoying this?' 'Pull down your pants, I want to watch you jerk off while he fucks me'. Lisa straddled him and positioned his cock to enter her. She called me over and told me to get a condom from the bag. She told me to open it and put it on him. I said 'what!!??' she repeated 'put it on him'. I had no idea how to react to this but i did as she asked. I opened the package, reached down below her ass which was perched just above his cock and fumbled as I tried to roll the rubber on his cock. I finally got it on him and then he said 'now put it inside'. I pointed his cock at the wet opening and then he pushed her down on him. I remember seeing her slide down his black pole and moaning as he drove deeper and deeper. She told me to sit in the chair, she wanted to see me jerk off. He fucked her in this position for a while, she kept saying 'I want you to jerk off, watch him jerk off Mac, fuck me Mac'. He Fucked her furiously, as I sat a few feet away and jerked off and watched his black pole slide in and out of my wife's pussy. I remember thinking at least he is wearing a condom, I was sure he was going to cum any minute now. Lisa came twice while he was fucking her this way, her body shuddering and quivering with each orgasm. She rolled off him and started blowing him again, still not satisfied. He pulled the condom off again then rolled her over onto all fours and spread her ass cheeks. He positioned her at the end of the bed and started fucking her doggy style. I knew he did not have a condom on at this point. Lisa looked over to me and said, 'keep jerking off, but don't cum until he does' I did not have to wait long...Mac fucked her hard and I remember the curve of her arched back allowing him full and deep access to her pussy. Mac then said 'you want it inside?'...Lisa and I both didn't understand what he meant. He repeated, 'Inside or outside?' finally realizing by the pace of his thrusts what he meant and much to my relief, my wife replied 'outside'. He pulled out and splatted her ass and back with his sperm. they lay there for a while, then Mac got dressed and was ready to leave. He shook my hand and said thank you, which I thought was very nice of him. I will never forget what he said to me 'I fucked your wife the way she needs to be fucked, now she's always going to want black cock' He was right. After he left Lisa asked me if I enjoyed that, seeing him fuck her and use her. I told her it was hard to watch but I could not stop. She said come here and fuck me. As I entered her, I could feel the difference immediately. And so could she, she said 'can you feel how he stretched me out? He stretched my pussy, now fuck me.' I fucked her and all i could think about was how his cock had been inside her minutes ago. i became more excited as she whispered, 'he fucked your wife' over and over in my ear. she sensed I was about to cum and arched her back, opened her legs and said 'fill me!'. I flooded her and then we soon fell asleep exhausted. The next day on the way to the airport, Lisa asked what I thought of last night. I said it was very unexpected but I knew she was enjoying herself. She said 'you know I think he was right, about what he told you before he left...I've always been curious about black men, now I finally think I know what I've been missing

the rules of play according to Lisa

So I'm now realizing that my wife wants to see other men. She does not want to have an affair, she just seems to want the sex, and the excitement that being with another man brings her. I'm slowly coming to grips with this, and while I don't necessarily like the idea, I know our marriage and family is otherwise very fulfilling for us both - it's just something we are going to have to deal with. Lisa told me she enjoyed having me watch her, she felt it added to the excitement both she and her partner felt and that she felt secure with me knowing what was going on. She felt it was not cheating, since I was there and I was aware of what she was doing. That was very important to her since she would not want to be one of those women who cheats and lies to her husband.

She asked if I was ok with being involved, if I would mind helping her find suitable men for her to meet. She said it would be good for me since I would have a role in it rather than just a wittness to it. I said that it might be a good thing for me, that I would try it. Lisa said 'You know what I like' see if you can find it for me. She suggested I place some ads on swinger sites and describe what 'we' were looking for...she went on to tell me what she wants and needs:

• She only wants men with large cocks, thickness and girth are very important to her, length secondary but also important. She said 8 inches or more is what she likes.




• She only wants young in shape men who are attracted to older women




• Only men who are comfortable fucking her with me present




• She said race was not an issue but she was not attracted to asian men




• She does not like hairy men




• She prefers muscular men

So I placed a few ads and a photo of her and we recieved hundreds of replies. I began chatting with some of them on yahoo trying to weed out the jerks from men I thought my wife would be interested in. A few months later, we had several men who we thought were suitable but no time to meet.

We did however set aside time for a much needed vacation to the carribbean. Just Lisa and I, no kids or responsibilities. I really was looking forward to spending some one on one time with my wife, but while we spent alot of quality time together, my wifes insatiable needs once again took over...as you will find out in my next post

"So what did you think about last night?"

The morning after was very strange indeed. We had gotten home at around 3AM from the hotel and Lisa was exhausted and fell asleep within minutes, no shower, and she didn't say much. The next day was a typical Sunday morning in almost every way, the kids came down for breakfast, Lisa made breakfast for them, we read the paper and talked as if nothing had happened the night before. As we sat there, I began to have flashbacks from the night before, images of my wife with her legs spread wide, the sounds her mouth made as she sucking his cock, I remembered hearing him moaning in as she blew him, how he held her hair back to show me her mouth and hand sliding up and down his shaft.



An hour or 2 later the kids were out doing their thing and Lisa and I sat in the kitchen sipping coffee. As I sat there, sipping our coffee Lisa broke the silence and said, "So what did you think about last night?".

I said "I thought you enjoyed yourself, how was it?" She went on to tell me how great it was and that she hadn't had orgasms like that so so long. She said he was so big and that excited her even more, she said she liked having me there and asked if I was uncomfortable.


I told her honestly that he seemed like a very nice guy and that made it easier for me, but I wanted to know what it was that made him so much better than the sex we had together. With that, Lisa put down her coffee and told me to come upstairs to the bedroom with her.

She dropped her robe climbed into bed and invited me in. I will never forget that moment...she guided my head between her thighs, rolled her hips and moaned. She spread her thighs wide and said "Taste me". Her pussy was so wet and I could still smell his scent on her. She held my head between her thighs and said "Taste it, honey, he fucked me so good". She quickly came to orgasm and then pulled me up and said "now fuck me like he did".

I was so excited and hard that I slid inside Lisa easily. No lube needed this morning. I went in so easily...then she said "feels different doesn't it...?"
I began to think about what happened the night before. 'He' had been in there too. I fucked her furiously as these thoughts went through my head. She said "He fucked your wife, how do you feel about that", "his cock stretched my pussy, you feel the difference dont' you?"

I did feel the difference and I tried to hold off as long as I could and hopefully bring Lisa to another orgasm, but it was all too intense and as i was about to cum she told me to "pull out, I want to see you cum". I quickly exploded on her pussy and splattered her belly.

As we lay there, she told me to spread the cum on her belly and pussy, it was a wet sticky mess, but i did as she asked. I then asked her if she came and she said she had not. She said, "I came so much last night, I'm not really surprised you couldn't get me off, it's ok" She went on to say she couldn't believe how thick and long he was, and how "that's what makes me cum".

Afterwards, I just has to deal with it, the painful anxious reality that my sweet beautiful wife, the mother of our children has been fucked by another man.

she slowly, shyly confessed to me what’s been going on, how long she has had these unfulfilled sexual desires, that she didn’t mean to hurt me, and that she still loves me. Still, I felt humiliated, inadequate, and somewhat lost and confused. I asked her if she would like to stop, to please stop having sex with other men, she said she wanted to be honest, and she tells me that she can’t really promise me anything because she doesnt’ know, that she’s confused.
After more talking, she eventually tells me that if i wants to leave her, she’ll understand. She says knows it’s all her fault. But she loves me, and that’s not what she wants. I want to be with her, I wants her to stay. And I'm feeling desperate because even though every fiber of my being does not want to accept this, I also don’t want to lose her and our marriage and family life are otherwise perfect.


After more talking, Lisa gains the strength and confidence to honesty explain to me that if we are to remain together, if I really want to stay with her, our relationship is going to have to change. She explains that she’s just being honest with me. That’s when I realize that the price of staying together will be I'm going to have to get used to the idea of sharing her with other men. She doesn’t put it quite that bluntly, but I know what she means.

Close to home (part 2) - No turning back

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